it's complicated ➵ a.g & m.c

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I couldn't stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks. They were uncontrollable. My breaths were shaky and unstable; like my knees which felt like they would give way any minute

Aaron walked me to my house in silence. I didn't want to talk, and neither did he

I couldn't help but feel bad for Aaron. His boyfriend is on the other side of the world doing what he loves. Who am I kidding? So will mine in less than 12 hours. Although, we're not together...

"Bye" Aaron's voice made me jump after being in silence so long

"Bye" my voice cracked as I said it, forming tears in my eyes. I ran up the stairs and ignored the "welcome back" my mother gave me and got straight to my bed and cried. Nothing but cried

I heard a dainty knock on my door, then the door knob turned and my mothers head popped into my room. She was holding a plate of pancakes drizzled in honey

"You seemed upset Ariana, I thought you would've been talking about how great it was" she placed the pancakes on my bedside table "why are you crying?"

"He left" my heart skipped a beat as the words fell from my mouth. My mam cleared a space on my bed so that she could sit at the end of it. Her eyes met mine which made my heart beat faster and made the tears reappear in my eyes

"Who left?" she questioned, her complexion showing that she was worried

"Michael" she put her hand on my shoulder and smiled

"Sweetie I'm sure they'll come back to play here, next year" I realised that she thought I was upset they left for the next show. Although that was part of the reason, it was much more than that

"Did you enjoy your night?" she questioned. The question took my mind off Michael leaving and made me think of what we had done tonight

"After the show we went to the beach with the boys," I decided to tell her everything because although she was my mother, she was like my bestfriend too "we laughed and splashed each other with water and had the time of our lives"

She grinned at my story. I wasn't sure wether she believed me but I was about to

"Then we went back to the arena to say goodbye to them and I kissed Michael" he eyes shot my way

"You what?" she wasn't angry she was surprised, and happy. She sat closer and smiled "tell me everything"

"We were so close to being something, but I don't even know if that'll happen now. He'll be in one country and I'm here. He said he wouldn't leave me, and I believe him"

My mother sighed and kissed my forehead "you need to make sure your happy and know what you want-"

"Michael. I want Michael" my heart was beating fast at the thought of him beside me

"Ariana, I know how much this boy mean to you, he seems lovely and sweet, and I believe he wouldn't forget about you because he cares, from what you've told me"

I loved my mother. She understood my situations not only as an adult but my perspective - a child

"You should try and sleep, Ariana. Maybe it'll clear your head" she gave me a hug and turned off my light, leaving me in the dark - it wouldn't be the first time

I couldn't help but wonder if Michael was awake right now, or if he was thinking about me or if he was thinking the exact same thing I'm thinking right now

Michael's POV

I can't sleep. I want nothing more than Ariana to be beside me right now. She makes me the happiest man alive and I'm so glad I saw her tweet a few weeks ago

Some people would say 'you can fall in love with someone in a night, it takes time' but I say 'love chooses. it could be in a year or ten, or a day or two' because I fell for Ariana, in under 3 hours

I'd hate to be that guy that says 'it was love at first sight' although that was the case, it was much more than that. I feel like I know her, as much as she knows me

I love her

Ariana's POV

My head is a mess and the only person that could help ease this migraine and to stop all of the thoughts swirling around in my mind would be Michael

I know him more than anyone and tonight at the beach made me realise how much I love Michael; his eyes, his face and every little piece of him

He looked so beautiful and I can't believe what's happening, but it feels like my love has grown stronger and will continue to grow because I know that I can't be without him

I love him