'Your hand fits in mine
Like its made just for me
But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots
With the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me'
Aleks. My wonderful boyfriend. He was meant just for me, why didn't we notice it early?
'I know you never love
The crinkles by your eyes
When you smile
You've never loved
Your stomach or your thighs
The dimples in your back
At the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly'
He's so insecure, I don't know why. I'll always love him, no matter what
'I won't let these little things slip
Out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh it's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things'
I love every part of Aleks. The parts he hates of himself are some of my favorites
'You can't go to bed
Without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason
That you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations
Are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me'
He's so cute. When he's asleep he talks. Says things in Russian. Sometimes he says he loves me in his sleep or he will say embarrassing things. I never tell him when he wakes up
' I know you've never love
The sound of your voice on tape
You never want
To know how much you way
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me'
He's always self conscious. I'll love him endlessly no matter what. I tell him that, it helps him little by little
'I won't let these little things
Slip Out of my mouth
But if its true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little'
He tells me he loves me, I tell him I love him. We are always happy together. We may fight but we always know we love each other
'You'll never love yourself
Half as much as I love you
And you'll never treat yourself right
Darling, but I want you to
If I let you know
I'm here For you
Maybe you'd love yourself
Like I Love you
Oh'
He stopped cutting recently. I remember when he started we would stay on the phone late at night. He'd be in his bathroom with his razor in hand and I'd be in my room laying down. I would talk him out of cutting, tell him my feelings. He would break down apologize. He used to call himself ugly, stupid, useless, a waste of space. I always explain why I love him and he feels better
'I've just let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
Cause it's you
Oh it's you
It's you they add up to
And I'm in love with you
And all these little things
I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if its true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all your little things'
Aleks' bare back was pressed against my tattooed chest. My arms were wrapped around him as we were laying down, he fell asleep a couple minutes ago. I touched his hand, cold and pale compared to mine. I entwined our fingers and felt his hands warming up. I heard his breathing go back to normal. He turned his head enough so he could see me, there was a small smile evident. He turned fully and wrapped his arms around my waist
"Thank you Eddie" he mumbled
"You're welcome" I kissed the top of his head "you know I love you right?"
He nodded and kissed my chest "I don't know why but yes"
I kissed his forehead this time "because you are absolutely amazing. You're beautiful and funny. Don't ever doubt yourself, okay babe?"
He looked up at me, his eyes watery. I kissed him briefly on the lips and held him close to me
"Aleks" I said
"Yes?" His voice was quivering from his tears threatening to spill
"Do you love me?"
"Of course"
"Do you care about me?"
"Of course"
"Will you marry me?"
He looked at me again
Tears left his eyes "of course"
A/N
Just a quick oneshot. Sorry I haven't been updating. I have been busy with school and family. I should be back on track in one or two weeks. Chapters will be out here and there, most likely Oneshots. The song for this chapter is Little Things by One Direction. This is one of my absolute favorite songs. It was this song that actually got me into One Direction, I listened to it when it first came out and was like "Holy shit, I love One Direction"
