In These Lyrics

His Warmth

Erens POV [Self harm warning]

Pic above is a shirt I got... makes me very Happy XD

Stupid Levi, dragging me here. I was hungry enough as it was, than exposing me to all of that human food, making me crave it even more, it was basically suicide.

I looked down at my clenched fists, trying not to smell the scent of Levi's blood just across from me, trying not to heat the steady thump of his heart beat. It was way to tempting. I felt my fangs dig into my lip. I gasped. In that second I stood up and bolted to the elevator faster than any human and disappeared to my floor. The second the doors opened I raced to my fridge and threw it open, downing two bags.

I grabbed my cell phone out of my pocket and called Erwin.

"Hello?"

"Erwin, I almost just killed Levi" Silence on the other end.

"Erwin, are you listening?" I asked with impatience. I heard a deep inhale on the other end.

"He didn't find out though right, you were able to hold back enough?" He asked seriously.

"I don't think he did, but I bolted out of there really fast, like I did the night you found me" Erwin sighed in relief.

"Alright, we will have to figure out a system" He said, I assumed he was referring to the fact that I got really hungry around lunch and almost ate my manager. I had zero ideas, but apparently he did.

"Eren, a metal water bottle filled with food!!" I pulled my phone away from my ear, cringing, after he was done yelling I pulled it back.

"Jesus Christ Erwin, you trying to make me deaf?" He sighed.

"Does that sound like a good idea though Eren, not one of the see-through bottles of course, but one of the metal ones." I nodded, than realized that he couldn't see me.

"Yeah, sounds good Erwin"

"All right, I will be up in ten minutes with a water bottle" I hung up without saying goodbye, not even caring that I was being rude. I ran into the kitchen and pulled out a steak knife that I would never use for eating. I made my way to the washroom, silent tears sliding down my face. I closed the door and sat down on the side of the tub, bringing the blade to my wrist. I am a monster. A small amount of pain bloomed in my wrist, but again, not nearly enough. I sliced another line, for almost killing Levi. I am such an idiot, getting involved in a business like this. Dealing with all these people. I heard the elevator ding.

"Eren!" A chipper female voice cried out. It sounded like the woman I talked to on the phone this morning. I almost dropped my knife on the floor in shock.

"Eren! Where are you!" She called into the apartment. She must be bringing me a water bottle.

"O-oh, Hanji, I-is that you!" I managed to call out.

"Eren!" she called excitedly,

"I have your water bottle!" She sang happily.

"Oh, just put it on the counter please" I said as best I could without stuttering due to the slowly fading pain in my wrist.

"Alright, see you later" She called, shortly after, the elevator dinged shut, I quickly let out a breath I didn't notice I had been holding. I got up to wash my hand, but as I was about to put my hands under the cool water I saw the flawless, clean skin. I sighed. I was never going to get used to that.

I walked out of the bathroom and had the thought that I should probably get back to work, though I was scared to see Levi again. Coincidentally, at that moment my phone rang, from Levi. I hesitantly answered it. Immediately his smooth, low voice filled my ears.

"Eren, where are you?" He asked in what would seem to be an emotionless tone but I found a bit of worry in it.

"My room" I mumbled quietly into the phone.

"I'm on my way"

"No! Wai-" But he had already hung up. I quickly looked around to see if there was any evidence of my condition, and any other personal items or clues into my life. I didn't know why, but I felt a bit scared to let anyone know about me. Mikasa knew about me, Dad knew about me, and Mom... mom knew about me. Where are they now. Left me, left me, and dead. That is what happens when people get connected to Eren Jaeger. I didn't want to lose another friend, so I didn't want to gain one. So, I wouldn't.

But Levi... He seemed different. He seemed to also be closed off, and cold to everyone else. But I caught a glimpse of home while I was singing, where raw, painful emotion had taken over his perfect, attractive face.

Since when did I start calling him attractive?

Whatever not going to deny that he is.

But in that moment, I saw that he has more to him than just that cold facade. Though I don't think he knew I knew, and I sure as hell wasn't going to let him.

The elevator dinged. I sat down on the couch, looking at the closed curtains, feeling a bit sad that I couldn't enjoy the view unless clouds covered the sky in shades of grey.

Footsteps. I took a deep breath.

The couch sunk slightly. I felt an arm drape over the top of the couch. I hesitantly stole a glance at him. At Levi. Hi eyes were straight forward, mouth tilted downwards in a natural scowl. His hair hung down and slightly covered one of his eyes. I let out a soft breath.

"Do you despise me or something" He said emotionlessly, staring at the dark grey curtains.

"N-no" I managed to say through my anxiety of the situation, the heat radiating off of his body. Heat I didn't have, the thought made a visible shiver run through my dead body.

He looked at me for the first time.

"Tch, you sick or something?" He asked while tossing a blanket at me from a neighbouring couch.

"Yeah, something" I whispered faintly. I wrapped the blanket around me. Levi had a flash of emotion in his slate coloured eyes before he grabbed my shoulders and pulled me closer to him. I felt his warmth and my contentedness and soon felt drowsiness overtake me.

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QOTD: Did you see the thing I did with Levi and the couch and Eren, you know the thingy, um, never mind.

Hope you enjoyed!