In These Lyrics

Radioactive

Levi's POV

"Eren?" I said hearing my voice waver a bit at the end. He looked up at me with big eyes, watery with unshed tears and nodded.

"Why are you here?" I asked. It was past his curfew, but I didn't really care about that. I cared about why of all the places in the city he came to my bar. He probably couldn't sleep, so he snuck out for a place to think other than the crushing silence of his room, but why here?

"Couldn't sleep" He said quietly, I Looked down, ashamed that I had been fooled by him. I was embarrassed that he caught me trying to help a kid out. I usually don't like people who I am close to see my soft side. It might make them think that I am actually a good person.

"Yeah, but why come here?" He looked at me.

"I honestly didn't mean to" He said with a small frown. I felt my heart sink for a brief moment, I thought he actually wanted to spend some time with me but-

"My feet just automatically led me here" He said with sincerity, looking down his cheeks started to get dusted with pink. I felt myself grow a small bit happier, though why would the thought of him being drawn to my bar make me happy?

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Wait.

I started running a bunch of scenarios involving Eren and I through my head, thousands per second. And I realized something. I would do anything to make him smile, anything to make him laugh, anything to make him like me, though this whole time, I never even realized I was trying, but I was.

I, Levi Ackerman had a crush on Eren Jaeger.

Shit. He was my client, it was impossible.

"Eren, I-" He abruptly stood up, cutting me off, though to be honest I didn't know how I would've ended that statement anyways.

"I'll go now" He said looking away, he placed a five dollar bill on the bar and walked out of the small building. I watched him leave, hoping desperately that he would come back.

He never did.

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The night passed slowly and painfully. A blur of wiping tables and pouring drinks. The whole time after Eren had left I had an earbud in one ear, a weak attempt at escape from my crushing reality. I wanted Eren back, in more ways than one. I missed him even though he had only been gone an hour or so.

I ushered everyone out of The Wings Of Freedom when closing time came through the sound of 'Shutup and Kiss Me' by Marianna's Trench. I started singing along once everyone was gone. I swept the floor and put some glasses back on the shelf and made my way upstairs. I walked into my room and sat on the end of my bed. I looked at my darkened room, not having the heart to get up and turn the light on.

I pressed pause on my music and pulled the earbud out.

Silence. Empty silence that I needed to fill. I glanced at my violin and was confronted by thoughts of Eren, when we played together. I rolled over to the other side of my bed so I could reach it without actually having to get up.

I curled my hand around the cherrywood neck and raised it to my chin. I dragged the bow against the strings causing a sad, yet beautiful melody to a usually hardcore and energetic song. I closed my eyes, like I always did while playing.

Radioactive. The song that now every time I heard it, I heard Eren singing it.

I played, I thought I could almost hear his voice whispering the words in a harsh yet beautiful and soft tune. I found myself also singing the words that I knew so well. I heard a soft gasp.

My eyes flew open, the violin and bow fell to either side to me on my bed. In front of me was a tall but not quite lanky and very familiar silhouette leaning on my doorframe.

"Your voice is beautiful" The male voice said from the shadows. I sighed in relief at the familiar voice.

"Eren, I swear to god you're a fucking stalker" He walked closer and ended up sitting on the end of the bed.

"Well, I went back, but than I realized I didn't take my ID with me or my authorization card with me, soooo," He trailed off, looking over to me with big eyes that at this moment looked green.

"So you need a place to stay?" I said, almost laughing at the irony of it. Almost. I lay down and look at my ceiling.

"You can stay here if you want, I have a spare room across the hall" I said, dismissing him plainly. Though he didn't budge. I sat up, he stared forward.

"You're not going to sleep, are you?" I said. He looked back at me with the grin that I had craved earlier, and wide, now blue looking, eyes.

"Nope" He said popping the 'p' dramatically. He stood up and extended a hand.

"Lets do something Levi!" He said, than looked down.

"Unless you tired, than I can do something myself" He looked away, through it didn't prevent me from seeing the thinly masked sadness and disappointment spread on his features.

I couldn't say no, even if I was tired, which I wasn't. I reached up and grabbed his hand, shocked at how cold it was, though it was comforting against my warm one. Eren smiled, making it feel like day again in my room.

He dragged me down the stairs and out the front door which I had stupidly left unlocked, so that was how he got in.

"Levi?" I looked over at him, he looked so much more energetic at night than he did in the day.

"Hm?" I asked in response. He smiled sheepishly.

"Could we do something illegal?" He said shyly, like he really wanted to, but was to afraid of my answer. I really didn't think it was a good idea, but who was going to catch us? Police and thugs, though we could be spared from that if we used... No, I couldn't, I swore to myself to never wear that shit again... but...

Fuck it.

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QOTD: I don't have a question today , so ima give you and idea, hit paste in the comments eh?

AOTD: Im not going to paste because it is literally half of one of the earlier chapters sooooooo ya.