Floating In and Out of Life

Was it right? Or just another mistake?

You know when you do something and you think at the time it was the best decision you could make well turns out once you've done it, you feel like you have made this gigantic mistake and when you try think 'no it will get better I've just got to wait' it doesn't get better it makes you scared and panicky and you can't stop thinking about the mistake you've made and how if you hadn't of made it no one would know you could just carry on like always. But once something is done and people know their different just through the tone their using or the tone that's coming from the messages basically says 'well done idiot just another thing you've messed up' and you can't help but think even though they said they'll be there for they won't be because they've changed and they only just found out. So how is it meant to stay the same when they've already changed. Maybe I should distant myself but then it'd hurt people I care about and it's not worth them hurting because of my mistake.
My Lil Big brother said 'you aren't living if you don't take risks' so maybe this is the first risk I've got to take to live again.