Fault 2 // Denis Stoff

N i n e

I anxiously awaited the buzzer.

Matty was playing with his toys on the floor, little did he know his dad was just about to walk in.

I was nervous. I haven't been in an enclosed space with Denis in a while. Of course work, but others were there.

The buzzer then rang, making me jump and press the button. Allowing him to walk up.

I started to shake but calmly recollected myself.

You're confident, you don't care what he has to say, don't take his shit.

I sighed when I heard a knock on the door. That was fast.

I slowly walked to the door, peeping through the hole.

Denis stood there, fumbling with his hands. At least he was alone.

I answered, letting him in.

"Hi." He said.

"Hi."

"Where's Matty?" He asked, carrying a bag. "I bought him some things."

"He's in the living room." I mumbled.

"Thanks." He said before walking towards the living room area.

I slowly followed and stood at the door frame.

Denis rubbed his stubble. "Jesus, he's grown a lot."

I nodded. "Mhm."

"Hey buddy." He chuckled sadly.

"Hello!" Matty giggled. "Who that mommy?"

Oh god. This is Awkward.

"Uhh-"

"I'm your daddy Matty." Denis said, interrupting me.

"You can't just throw bombshells on a two year old!" I whispered.

"Hi dada!" He said although it was mostly gibberish.

I smiled sadly.

"Uh, can I pick him up?" Denis asked.

I pursed my lips and nodded, "sure."

This was killing me to have to talk to Denis without flipping out, but I'm trying for Matty. Emphasis on the trying.

Matty reached out as Denis picked him up. He began trying to mess with Denis's hair.

"Hey!" Denis chuckled. "What are you doing bud?"

"Hair!" He giggled, bouncing up and down.

My son is so strange. I kept in my laugh.

"You like my hair?" Denis smiled.

Matty nodded quickly, then pointed towards the bag. "What that?"

"I brought you new toys." Denis grinned. "You wanna see?"

I decided to walk into my bedroom, leaving them alone for a little bit.

I literally wanted to break down and sob. Why is this happening?

I feel like everything's going too fast. I feel strange.

Seeing Denis after a long time of hating him is weird. I hate his guts, why have I allowed this? What made me agree to let him see Matty?

I accidentally let a few tears slip, causing me to wipe them quickly.

What the fuck am I doing. Why am I crying? I haven't cried in so long.