ASPEN'S POV
Christmas day
Since it was Christmas we didn't have to go to work
I however did have to upload for the guys
I was gonna be home alone again because Mack was visiting his family
As much as I wanted to be happy and festive
I couldn't
I was still too upset
I was still too upset to get out of bed
I grabbed my phone off my nightstand and unlocked it
My homescreen
Me and Des
I sighed and opened up twitter
Notifications were all I saw
Asking what happened and if I was okay
"No I'm not okay" I tweeted
"Aspen why" is pretty much all the replys were
I still didn't want them to know
I know they're his fans but
I couldn't bring myself to tell them
I know they deserve to know
But I'm still too depressed
I guess the main reason is I didn't want this to be my reality
I felt as if I didn't tweet it out it wasn't my reality
I felt as though if I didn't mention it would all go away
And Des would in my arms
But thats not how it worked
I knew that
I just didn't want to know that
I didn't want to believe this was my reality
My shitty reality
A reality where I might not ever get my boyfriend back
I just want Des back
Even though he might not be back
I miss him
I miss him being in my arms
I miss playing with his soft and curly hair
I miss him cuddling up to me
I miss him coming to room after he had a nightmare and asking if he could sleep in my bed tonight
I miss him nuzzling in my chest
I miss the touch of his lips on mine
I miss all of that
I want it back
But I might not ever get it back
A/N Yes this is a short chapter again but I felt as if this was a perfect place to end
