The Lion Tattoo ~ {HIATUS}

Chapter 7: A Guilty Conscience

Back to Regina's POV!

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It was killing me, I could hear them, all of them. I couldn't do or say anything though. I could hear what Robin said, he said he loved me, I don't think he actually does though. I think he's saying it because he has a guilty conscience.

 He's saying it because he's guilty for making me want to kill myself. He sleeps in my room at night, because he feels guilty. He doesn't know I can hear him, he says all those things because he's trying to justify what he did. 

As far as I knew there was only one person in Storybrook that loved me, that person was Roland. He talked to Robin everyday for the past week. He asked to talk to me all of the time. I hear him talk about me coming home, about how much he loved me. I believed what he said, he said it because he meant it. 

I knew he wouldn't mean it if he actually knew the circumstances, I killed his mother. 

Robin kissed me, the true loves kiss didn't work. Tink said he was my soulmate, I guess he's not. I had one hope left, Roland. Finally today he called Roland again.

Robin: Hi Roland, how are you?

Roland: Good daddy how are you? When are you coming home?

Robin: Oh Roland, you know I can't come home until Regina gets better

Roland: Daddy, can I come see her, I want her to be better

Robin: Sure Roland, ask Will to take you, and I'll be here waiting for you.

Finally, Roland was coming, maybe he could wake me up. I heard Robin talking to me again. 

"He's going to be really upset, if you don't wake up, how I wish you would wake up, so I could hug you again and tell you how much I love you."

 Hearing him speak that way sickened me, I knew it wasn't the truth, but Roland, he would save me. Roland finally arrived and I could feel it, this was going to happen, it's got to be Roland, he's my only hope now.

 I heard him walking in, I could hear his little voice, "Daddy, do we need to be quiet, I don't want to wake Gina."

 I could hear the stutter in Robin's voice, "Right now son, the only thing we can do is pray she wakes up." 

Robin walked out of the room to talk to Will, leaving Roland with me. Roland still didn't understand, but it didn't stop him from talking to me.

 "Hi Gina, I know you can't hear me, because daddy says your sleeping. But I wanted to ask you something while its just me and you here. Gina will you be my mama? Well when you wake up, I don't know when that will be but I miss you. I wish you could come home, but you can't." He sighed.

 I was dying, this little boy loved me and I really wanted to tell him how much I loved him too. As much as I couldn't stop feeling love for him, I knew it wouldn't last. 

 "Well Gina, don't tell daddy about this, I don't think he knows how I feel." 

Robin walked in and said, "It's time to go Roland tell Gina bye."

 He sounded so upset as he said it. "Bye Gina!" Little Roland said so happily. 

I gave up hope, there was no time left for me. By some amazing luck the little boy planted a kiss on my head and got up.

 I felt a rush go over me and yelled out, "Roland, you saved me!" 

Robin turned around and ran to me. "Regina, your awake, oh my god, how?" 

A doctor came running in, "You need to go sir we will call you in when we are done examining her." 

Just like that Robin was gone again. After an hour of the doctors asking me how I was feeling, I was finally done and Robin came back in. 

"Regina, what happened? How?" He sounded relieved as he said it. 

"I was depressed I took a bottle of pills, planning to kill myself, I wonder why that would be." I said rather sarcastically. 

He started to tear up. "Regina, I can explain I-" 

I sighed. "Robin I don't want to hear your explanation, I want to be alone. Please, can you call Emma and tell her that I'm alright, I want to talk to her." Robin called Emma like I asked, at least he was still a nice person.

Emma: REGINA?! Thank god your okay, we were all so worried about yo-

Regina: Can you please come pick me up they are discharging me, we can talk then

Emma: What about Robin he's there.

Regina: Can you please just come pick me up?

Emma: To be honest, I'm already driving, I'll be there in 5.

I hung up the phone and got dressed, then I sat in the waiting room, yeah 5 minutes sure. 

That's when Roland ran in and hugged me. "Gina I missed you!" I couldn't help but respond, even if I wasn't on the best terms with Robin it didn't mean I couldn't be nice to the boy.

 "I missed you too Roland." I hugged him back.

 "Oh Roland, you can call me mama." 

His little face lit up, "Really Gina? I mean Mama." He said with a laugh. 

Robin came and grabbed Roland, he said to me, "I know your mad at me, but I appreciate the fact that your nice to him." He gave me a kiss on the cheek and walked out, just as Emma walked in.

 "Oh what was that," Emma said as we walked out. When we finally got into her car, I cried. "I could hear him in my coma, he told me how much he loved me, in fact he couldn't stop talking."

 Emma looked at me, "Isn't that a good thing Regina? He obviously loves you, he was talking to all of us in the waiting room and he sounded real enough." 

I couldn't help but sob more, I was finally able to get a word in, "He was saying it to justify what he had done , he didn't think I would hear it, in fact he hasn't even mentioned it to me, he was trying to make himself feel better." I said through sobs. 

"Oh Regina, you didn't give him a chance, maybe hear him out when you feel better." 

I stopped crying now, "Yes I will, Emma thank you." 

"Do you want to go to Granny's?"

 I thought for a bit, I really wasn't that tired, I had just been through a long rest. "Why not, let's go get some drinks!"

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Some people are going to be like, Regina just got out of a coma and now she's going for drinks?

Yes she is because it's magic and it's my story, deal with it.

Don't worry, Regina won't be mad forever.

I hope you enjoyed that, next chapter will be out soon.