After holding conversation for a while, the heavy rain slowed down to a drizzle as we laid in the middle of the mud. Normally I would never do anything as weird and disgusting as this, but for some reason, having Kratos by my side made me feel like this was perfectly normal.
He stared up to the darkened sky as the heavy rain calmed down to a light drizzle. Puzzled due to our current topic of conversation, his eyebrows were drawn together in a pensive manner.
I signed outward, continuing the conversation. "But that's the thing. Sometimes you just put this wall around you. I've been trying to find a way around it, through it, something to break your barrier, but nothing works. You're always so seclusive and sometimes I feel like you hate me for some apparent reason."
"KL, I don't hate you. I just don't want you to feel like I'm invading your space. That's all I'm doing."
"Invading someone's space and locking them out are two total different things Kratos," I stated matter-of-factly.
"Well how am I to know the difference?" He asked, sitting up.
"You don't ever think that sometimes I just need someone to talk to?" I questioned.
"Look, I was just trying to give you space," he explained once again. A heavy sigh escaped my lips. As much as I hated to admit it, he was being truthful with me. How could I be mad at that?
"I know. It's just...it hurts to know that everyone that I felt I could confide in is just gone. All it took was mere seconds to shatter everything that I had. Sometimes I just wish someone else would get it," I said, sitting up and pulling my legs to my chest. Goopy clumps of mud could be felt falling off of my back, but at this point in time I didn't even care about how disgusting I looked or felt.
He sighed, "Well just look at the bright side o-"
I let out a sarcastic chuckle, "Bright side? Oh, now there's a silver lining to this?"
He held his hands up in surrender, "Hey, hey. Take it easy. I was just saying that mayb-"
"That maybe they wouldn't be dead if I wouldn't have let them go? Maybe if I went along with them, I wouldn't have to be here going through all of this? Sometimes it's just such a dark thing to think about. All of this death, having a fear of going on with my life because they're not here anymore. It's just so frustrating and overwhelming. I just wish this feeling would go away," I said. A sigh and a grunt escaped my lips at the same time and came out as this ugly wailing noise.
Kratos leaned forward and placed a muddy hand on my shoulder. It was disgusting yes, but when you're having a heart to heart, you have to try to ignore these things.
" But now you're here and that's all that matters," he said while his deep blue eyes gazed within mine. " If none of this would've happened, I never would've met you, KL."
As my eyes locked with his, my heart instantaneously skipped a beat. It was as if this boy had unraveled himself before me in a mere second and revealed all of the vulnerable, breakable pieces that made up who he was. His raw fragileness now exposed in the open, I didn't know how to interpret him. As his gaze stayed focused on my face, I felt absolutely speechless. Luckily breathing was an involuntary action or I would've forgotten to do so. Seeing him in such a sincere state was like none of this was actually happening and was just a figment of my imagination.
He continued, " If none of these crazy things would've happened, I never would've made my way to you. Sometimes, as much as it sucks, you have to embrace what happened in the past and look towards the future. If you stay stuck in your past, it'll just eat you alive. Take it from me."
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Science Fiction[COMPLETED] An average girl in an average world, KL Kiyano had no idea of the amount of power that she possessed. After all, she was just a normal teenager that was trying to find her place in this world. At least that's what she told herself up u...
