Chim-This isn't everything you are

Chapter 42

Just to say ill be rounding this fanfic up soon BUT i will be making more

Cheryls POV:

I creep up the stairs with a hot chocolate in hand. Kimba always loved little gestures like these so hopefully she would smile and show me her gorgeous face. I stopped just outside the bedroom and thought about what to say. I didn’t want to say the wrong thing and have a argument again I was over them. I pushed the door open slowly and her head span round to look at me.

“Hot chocolate and squirty cream with chocolate sprinkles thought I’d see if I could put a smile back on your face.” I say softly.

She didn’t really say much just gave me a sad smile before holding her hands out to take it. Her hands grab the cup and she takes it slowly running her finger tips over my hands that were also grabbing the cup. She places it on the side table and I notice her gripping something.

“Kim whats that?” I say nodding towards whatever was in her hands.

“Err nothing.” She stutters shoving it into her pockets.

“I want to say sorry Chez, I shouldn’t have said..”

“What did you mean by the comment?” I ask straight, cutting her off.

“What comment?” she asks although she knew.

“The ‘who really put that baby in danger’ one.” I say no emotions showing.

“Nothing, I shouldn’t have said that it was out of order!” she sighed laying down on the bed.

I didn’t join her I just sat quietly at the bottom of the bed.

“You meant it though, you cant lie to me Kim, I heard your voice…I know you to well for you to lie about it.” I say sadly.

“I didn’t mean it but isn’t it true? You smoke like a chimney babe, all these warnings on the packets and you ignore them what if it did contribute.” I sit there shocked, she was right in a way but she was blaming me.

She was blaming me although 5 minutes ago she said its one of those things.

“I know what your getting at Kimbo you might aswell just say I murdered our baby.” I stand up holding my stomach rubbing it in gentle circles.

“I would never say that Chez.” She says quietly. Something was wrong with her.

“You pretty much just did babe.” I laugh sarcastically. “What was really in your pocket?”

I gave her an intense look waiting for her to tell me what she was hiding. She pulls out some pills and it goes silent. I slowly walk over taking them from her.

“Anti depressants?”I couldn’t believe it, out of everyone Kim wouldn’t be one I could imagine to take something so stupid.

“Sorry Chez. I really am Im just so stressed lately and im going through a rough time but I swear I only got them today.” She rushes her words panicking.

“Your stressed? Wait you’ve had them a day yet theres 6 missing? Kim..have you?” I say worringly, if she had tried what I thought she had i…well I don’t know what id do.

“Im so sorry Chez.” She cries hugging my legs as I stand beside the bed in shock.

It wasn’t the fact she has them it’s the fact she tried to over…I cant even say it.

“I think im going to…” I rush out the bedroom into the en suite and throw up. I hear her footsteps behind me.

She cleans me up and we sit back on the bed barely looking at eachother.