Can't leave it broken. //AU.//

35- I'm the one to blame.

I haven't done Hussain's p.o.v since a while so here it is.

Hussain's p.o.v:

I shouted at her, I said the most hurtful things that I could ever imagine saying.

and I know that I am the one to blame, but why did she do this to me? She knew that I liked her, she knew I had feelings for her but she still went with that Manik guy, she chose him over me, she chose the one who didn't even care about her when she was in the hospital over the one who stood by her all the time there.

"HOW THE FUCK CAN SHE DO THIS TO ME?" I shouted to no one, trapped inside the house, time was repeating itself, I was getting back to the one who I used to be, the one who was so broken, so messed up and I can feel it inside me, I can feel that heart building up it's walls all over again.

I decided what I have to do, I can't be weak again, and I have to do everything to forget her, to not fall in love all over again. I can't do this to myself. 

I looked down, trying my best to not cry or do anything that I regret later on, but I will do what is best for us.

I was so weak, so helpless that this seemed to be the best option in my hazy mind right now and although my heart stopped me from doing this, I had to, I had to get my revenge, for breaking my heart all over again. Revenge seemed to be the best option right now and that's what I did, got my revenge. But who knew it would lead to much worse things.

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I walked inside the university earlier than Farah, and smiled to myself in victory.

I haven't been myself since yesterday, since I planned everything inside my head. It was as if I've turned into another person or something and I just can't control my own mind anymore. The need of revenge was clouded inside my head, stopping me from thinking twice for my actions.

I quickly called out for Ellie, the so called barbie of our university, I thought thing like these would end in high school but I was wrong, these girls were here too. But she seemed like a blessing to me today.

She looked at me, her mouth hung low because of course 'Hussain Asif who hasn't talked to anyone since ages has finally called her name.

Her reaction made my roll my eyes as she smiled a little too sweetly, fluttering her eyelashes as if that flirting would work on my but the only one in my head was Farah Ahmed.

My frown deepened at her mention but I shrugged it off, I had to continue with my plan for now.

She walked over to me as I leaned against the wall, in front of her but kept a  good comfortable distance as I started talking to her whatever came in my mind with a smirk and she looked as if she just got a brand new Mercedes right now.

Suddenly I felt someone's eyes on me and my smirk grew wider as I knew who it was. She saw me, and now she must know that feeling that I felt that day, the feeling that she was completely oblivious to.

I suddenly heard loud footsteps of someone coming towards us as she walked past me, I swear I saw some tears streaming down her face and that is when I came back to my own senses. That's when I realized what I was doing. I was breaking her heart, I was making her heart bleed, something that I promised myself never to do.

I took a small step back as my smirk turned into a frown, but Ellie's hand quickly came to my collar to stop me from moving away, I looked up at her, anger filled inside my eyes as I looked at her disgusting face who I seemed to like a few seconds ago.

I can see her sitting outside the building, tears streamed down her eyes and I wanted to go and comfort her but I was too embarrassed, to weak. I can't believe what got into me and made me do such type of thing. I was never like this, what is this girl doing with my head?

I suddenly saw Manik coming towards her and after seeing him, the anger inside me grew more and more but who was I to stop him now? I practically broke Farah's heart and now I cant just go up to her and get Manik away from her.

I should've thought of my actions. She got up, looking angry, pissed off as she walked by me, not looking at me as she exited the university building, I quickly backed away from Ellie who was saying something that I didn't even care about fluttering her eyes and twirling a strand of hair, all of it annoyed me to no extent, as I followed Farah outside but she was long gone.

As I just stood there looking at her car that drove away from me, looking at what I just did, and I couldn't help but blame every single fiber of my own being right now. 

What did I do? I did something that I never thought of, I did something that I wasn't supposed to. And I am the one to blame.

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I'm really sorry guys, I didn't update since a long while. I was just taking a break from all of this and now I feel like I left ya'll hanging and I felt bad so here is another update!