How Did I Fall in Love With You ?

Chapter Sixteen

{ Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye.}

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(Jason P.O.V)

 

She just walked away without even a backward glance; it took me a while to register what happened. I went to follow her, but a hand shot out to stop me.

“Give her some space to cool down.” This was coming from Emma; she had a worried expression on her face. I turned to Lauren who gave me a weird look before leaving the room.

Luke helped Taylor up and they both left the room probably to clean him up.

10 minutes ago

I was dancing with Lauren having a great time, when I glanced at the kitchen and I saw Taylor kissing Rachael. And I guess I just snapped, I have no idea what happened, until Rachael yelled at me. That’s when everything finally sunk in, that I just beat upTaylor.

I was now standing alone in the kitchen, I felt angry, disappointed and hurt. I opened the fridge and got out a six pack and headed to the back yard. I just needed to get good and drunk. I was on my third can when Luke came “So how’s it going Hulk?” He asked taking the seat next to me on the bench. He grabbed a beer and took a sip. I could see the concern on his face.

“How’s Taylor?”  I finished my beer throwing it and grabbing another one.

“He’s good. Cole’s driving him home. Jay maybe you should take it easy with the drinking.”

“I’m fine.” My senses were finally becoming numb. I was starting to forget what happened, but I could still see Rachael’s face hurt and sad. I couldn’t get it out of my mind.

 Emma and Lauren came out looking a little tired.

“You guys ready to go?” Luke stood up and hauled me up behind him.

Luke helped me get in the back seat of my car and Lauren was going to drive me home.

I must’ve dozed off because when I next woke up I was in the drive way of my house. Lauren opened my door and put her hand around my waist for support.

“Come on handsome let’s get you inside.” I stumbled a little, but then I regained my balance quickly. We went inside, I turned over to her.

“Lauren I’m sorry for what happened tonight. I don’t know what came over me.” my words were slurred.

“It’s ok.” She rested her hand on my cheek. “Why don’t I go have a seat and I'll make you some coffee?”

“Sounds great. thanks.” She headed of to the kitchen, I don’t know why but I went over to the living room and sat at the piano. I run my fingers lightly over the keys; I remember the day my grandfather got it for me. I used to practice every day with Rachael sitting beside me reading a book or doing her nails or something.

I looked up and I saw a picture of me and her hanging on the wall, we were 12 years old at that time. We were in our soccer uniform all dirty and sweaty, but her mom insisted to take it “I’m proud of my little mud men.” She said. I keep thinking how it was easy back then. No drama, just us being us; not caring what the world thought. And now I screwed it up. I was just trying to protect her from the world, but by being an ass I just pushed the one person that  truly loved me away.

A song came to my head and I just had to play.

(Play video)

 

Summer after high school when we first met
We make out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th Birthday
We got that matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor
And climb to the roof
Talk about our future
like we had a clue
I Never planned that one day
I'd be losing you

An image of Rachael smiling up at me popped up into my head, she was lying on the grass laughing. Her eyes held a spark in them, she was so beautiful.

And in another life
you would be my girl
We keep for our promises
Be us against the world

And in other life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

you were dreaming that I was your Johnny Cash
Never one we got the other We made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you
I put those records on

Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the Blues
Its time to face the music
I'm no longer amused

And in another life
you would be my girl
We keep full our promises
Be us against the world

The image in my mind changed, she was now snuggled up to me on the couch. I had my arms around her, she fit perfectly there. She was sleeping peacefully as I watched her.

And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
the one that got away
The one o o o o
The one that got away

All these money can't buy me a time machine (No o o o)
Can't replace you with a million rings (No o o o)
I Shoulda told you what you meant to me (Wo o o o)
Cause now I pay the price

And in another life
you would be my girl
We keep for our promises
Be us against the world

The next image chilled me to my bones, Rachael was crying. She was a little girl now. I tried reaching out but I couldn’t reach her, I couldn’t comfort her.

And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The one o o o o (X3)

And in another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away…

“Hey,” I look up startled; my vision was a little blurry. I remembered where I was and who I was with.

Lauren handed me the coffee and sat next to me on the bench.

“Thanks for the coffee.” I took a sip and looked over at her.

“Can I ask you something?” She watched me, I nodded my head.

“Do you love her?” her expression was blank.

“Do I love who?” I was confused and the amount of beer I had wasn’t really helping me.

“You know what forget it? It’s nothing.” she smiled at me and held out her hand. “We should get you to bed.”

“I think I’m gonna crash on the couch tonight, I don’t think I can make it upstairs.” I walked the short distance to the couch and as soon as my head hit the pillow, I was out.

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VOTE  If you feel sad for Jason & if you love this song  :(