I do. (romanogers fanfic)

part 1

the avengers tower has been so quiet since the death of black widow a.k.a natasha romanoff.
clint has retired,wanda and vision are married and on their honeymoon.So,the one that still live at avengers tower are bruce,tony (since him and bruce are sciencebros),pepper and ofc steve rogers.

STEVE's POV
i still can't accept natasha's death.It's all my fault.
i should've protect her.i should've not let her go
on a mission without me.i missed her so much.
and of course....i love her so much.

*flashback*
i heard a knock on my door,"steve?open the door please,
i need to talk to you." i can't hear clearly who it was because of the television.When i open the door,i saw a beautiful creature in front of me,"nat?"i asked,"come in."
there was an awkward silence,so i decided to break it,"umm...nat,what is it?what so important?its 2 in the morning?"i asked."umm...steve,promise not to get angry,okay?"she asked,i stare at her confused so i just nodded."i..i.."she sigh before getting more serious,"f-fury give me a mission,its located in RUSSIA,and you know,its the place where my childhood w-"i cut her off because tear start to build up in her eyes,so i continue for her "red room" she sigh "yea,and i need to kill ivan since he came to tony and threaten him to kill us and I can't stand with it anymore." "i'm coming with you right?" i asked,praying "yes" is the answer,"steve...i-i-im so sorry,but you're not coming"she explained .my heart stopped for a second."how long?" i asked,trying not to show the pain,"umm..5 months,steve"she sigh,she started to cry,i know red room is her biggest fear.so i embrace her with a hug,she started to crying in my chest,"steve,im scared."she said,sobbing.she tighten the hug and i said,"me too nat,me too.I don't want to lose you." i love you too much nat.. i said to myself,im not brave enough to say it.she pull away the hug," steve,can i sleep here,tonight?"she asked"yes of course natasha"i said with a fake smile.After she fell asleep,i kissed her forehead and whispered,"i love you nat.".The next morning,i can't find natasha anywhere but i found a piece of paper and start to read it;
"good morning steve!im sorry for not telling you that today is my mission,i'll be back soon okay?
love,
natasha."
*end of flashback*

i woke up to the sound of my phone ringing,clint.

ON THE PHONE:

S: mornin clint.

C: morning captain,fury wants you.

S: when?

C: now.

i get out of my bed to get ready,i brush my teeth and then take a shower.i wear a white shirt with brown leather jacket (natasha's favourite) and jeans and of course boots.i  decided to use  my motorcycle,when i take my key,i saw a picture of me and natasha dancing in rooftop,you know,tony love to sneak up on us.

We used to never go to bed angry
But it's all we ever do lately
You're turning away like you hate me
Do you hate me, do you hate me? Oh

You, can take this heart
Heal it or break it all apart
No, this isn't fair
Love me or leave me here"

i sing and i cry,i cry,i cry remembering what happen in rooftop.i never love someone this much,not even peggy,i love peggy too but in a different way.but,its all  too late,it was my mistake,the two most important people in my life is gone now,because im too late.then,i realized i'm late to go,so i quickly got on to my motorcycle and go.
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(A/N)hey everyone! this is my first book,about romanogers ofc,trust me,its not a sad ending 😄 please vote,like,comment! (listen to love me or leave me by little mix while reading this book is highly recommended 😭😭😭)
p.s: sorry for my grammar because im not good at english 😅