I'm home. Josh thinks I should tell her. About dad and what happened. But I don't know... She is stressed enough already because of what happened everytime I cough I HAVE TO the doctors. Because she thinks it will irritate my chest from the suicide mission. Josh is the same as well he won't let me play out with him he has to come inside and it's boring. I haven't been able to do anything. But I might tell her so that she knows. But I don't know yet. I don't know if I want to risk it. Madison came into the room after school and she had made me a 'get well soon card' I don't want to get well soon. I wanted to die. And NOBODY knows why. Somehow I feel like I need to do something about it but if I do... I'll be in deep shit. My life is crap and that's what it's always going to be... Unless... Nope.
