Get ready to enter the world of Tori she's a mess. Dealing with friends, family , lovers and school doesn't make it any better for this Brooklyn wild child.
Oh baby , oh baby , it's been the best month and a half a girl can ask for . This is about the longest I've been seeing someone. Marcus came out of the great blue sky ... Literally , he's an angel I don't care who dropped him . I'm just glad he landed on my lap.
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But , somethings I tell myself he's to good for me. Don't get me wrong he's amazing and I want to be with him but ... I don't want him to leave me because of what other people say . I know for sure I don't care . But then Marcus is not that type of guy . He's gentle and sweet , cares for me and gives me advice for when I have issues, you know what I mean ? I forget to mention one thing about Marcus and I , we're having a long distance relationship. He's in Florida and I'm in New York we are currently 996 miles away from each other if you think plane wise which is about 2 hours travel time on a plane from our distances. Fuck, I know I know. "Why haven't guys seen each other your not that far ? " "Get on plane and see this guy"
Although it's not that fucking simple people . How will explain to my mother that a 16 year old wants to random fly to Florida for a boy.
You right , I could say I'm visiting a family member. But the gag is ... We don't so that won't work either sadly. We have a plan though . Marcus will come see me in January which is 5 months from now it's a wait worth waiting for , but I kind of told him when we first meet I want to have sex. Only because , it's been a long time since I've made love with anyone .
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But the more and more I get to know him that changes for me , there's just so much to learn about him I actually don't mind waiting . I want to explore this person more. However , sometimes I wish that Marcus would call or ft me , he's always busy so we text nonstop , but sometimes I'd wish I'd hear his voice . That way we could be on the phone for hours laughing , I'd hear his sweet deep voice and he'll hear my settle Brooklyn accent . It will be magical , I know it will.
My worst fear right now is Marcus falling in love with someone else since I'm not around. It could happen in 5 months. I know that I won't even when school starts I've been doing good so far any way. Why I fuck up something good?. The crazy thing is I miss him all the time , physically. We never touched ,kissed or hug . I always think about us doing something fun like the movies or race car driving or some shit. Us together. Wait , I'm I in love ? No I can't be cause I'm a thug. At least that's what I tell myself. Thugs can't fall in love. Fuck it this thug cry
