I've always wondered what my life would be like if I had just given up that day.
If I stopped caring
Stopped loving
Stopped everything.You can't forget a time of darkness
It never will go away
I could never forget.Darkness, alone, sad, angry, confused.
That was how I felt.
Who was I?
What caused me to fall so hard that I couldn't see anything?I was sad.
But i couldn't feel it.
Numbness, bitterness, sadness.
I couldn't feel, I couldn't speak.
So I stayed quiet.I let the world consume me.
I let the people destroy me.
I let myself crumple apart.I begged for someone to save me.
No one could hear my cry.I wanted to leave
I needed to escape
I forgot who I wasI wanted to leave this place, I wanted to find a meaning to my life because I couldn't see one.
I needed to escape my thoughts, I needed to see that my life had a purpose.
I forgot who I was, I forgot to tell myself that I loved me, so I let the words people spoke define me.I was in a dark place for a long time.
I didn't feel worthy.
I didn't feel wanted.
I didn't feel lovedI forgot how to love.
I forgot how to live
I forgot how to let someone in and let them see the good in me.
I shut that girl out.What scares me the most is if anyone will ever see the good in me.
I escaped that darkness.I'm still learning to love
To live
To let someone inI pray and pray. That I'll find someone who will see the good within me.
To set me free.
And except me for me.
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Dark Days
PoetryThe darkest day are yet to come. Who knows where this world is going to take us. I am lost, i am forgotten. Aren't we all? Welcome to the Dark Days.