HerShe

VI.

Alexis

      I was at the student lounge, bored as hell. I went too early for my 1st class.

Dahil nga medyo tulig pa ako dahil sa alaala ni Fer, akala ko is Thursday palang. Yun pala Friday na.

Usually kasi pag Thursday 7am pasok ko kaya I'm here in the student lounge wasting my time dahil sa katangahan na di ko napansin ang paglipas ng araw kaya eto maghihintay pa ako ng ilang oras dahil alas tres pa ang unang klase ko.

Edi wow sabaw.

I massaged my right eyebrow to calm myself from the shit that i've done.

Then suddenly I thought of something to lessen my boredom.

Naglabas ako ng yellow pad at ballpen at nagsimulang magsulat.

      
      The rhythm is your baby,
      The dance floor is your buddy,
      The way you move it's just so breathtaking,
       I just wondered how you kept it to look so amazing?

       How can you make my heart flutter?
       Whenever I want to talk to you I feel like I will stutter,
        Be my anatomy?
       Please be a part of me.

        Can i be your physiology?
        I just want you to know what you meant to me,
       

       Because it is the science of how we function,
        And a synonym for function is purpose,
       And purpose means aiming
      Aiming is also called intention,
      And making you fall in love with me...

" is my intention..." I whispered.

Then when I realized what I've wrote I shook my head trying to wake up from this madness.

No way. Nah uh. Nope. Never.

I'm just not ready for that.

I'm not ready for her.

Eh bakit gusto ka ba niya talaga?

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako sa subconscious ko.

Sumandal muna ako dito sa bench na inuupuan ko sa student lounge napansin kong napapadami na pala ang estudyante na tumatambay marahil ang iba'y wala pang klase gaya ko at iba nama'y kakatapos lang.

Napapatingin ang mga nagdaraanang studyante sakin at may mga nag ha 'hi' pa sakin at nginingitian ako ng matamis, nagbibigay nalang ako ng pilit na ngiti dahil wala pa din ako saking sarili, ang iba'y nagpapacute sa katabi kong bench at kung ano anong pag papapansin pa.