Who am I? Unknown

Feeling Less

He searched the pathway
And lost in the halfway
He wanted to move to light
For a new fight
He knew nobody believes him
But now he lost his faith in himself
Lost in the echo of lives
Like everyone is shouting from beehives
They want him but they don't want him
Perhaps he has lost all his glow
Getting low and low with every flow
Questions of his end
Why he is doing, no one to defend
He wanted to fill happiness
On the cost of his tears and emptiness
He is insane ecstatic
But again turned static
Like life with lives is not his motion
His direction moves to nowhere devotion
People say he will soon move to vacancy
Like his thoughts of eternity fights against legacy
He doesn't want body he wants soul
He doesn't want materials he wants dark goal
That's why Everytime his principles win
Drags him down under blue by damaging his fin
He searches soul and world grips him in lives
He moves up to purity but then gets again dives
He sometimes feels like to be feeling less
But what can he do, he feels everyone's bless
His demons want him to walk alone
Why he is seeking souls to go along
His desires are no more, his existence and his words
He is going the same place under swords
Like he doesn't want to feel anything
Is it he who doesn't want to feel nothing
Or he doesn't wanna make others suffer with him
His bodily desires, touch, feelings are dying dim
All he feels is a soul, a soul with no materialistic reality
But yes it exists beyond the world's duality
He just wanna feel soul nothing else
That's why he doesn't want to hurt anyone
Because soul is just his thing not for everyone

Like his 5 demons call him to get lost into woods
Serve the task of world till life under the hoods
No choice, no demand, no expectations, no desires
But yes he just wanna love spiritually
They say soul, be a soul
What is soul?
Where there is no hunger, no desire, no desperation
Just eternity with just pure love devotion
A connection that doesn't demand bodies
A connection that doesn't seek for roadies
They just keep moving without expectations
Like no diversions of temporary affections
It should be eternal like immortal
That's why he was standing there asking his demons
Is he capable of living the portal
Or he should move with dead with their ways
He has no faith in self so he surrenders his days
And moved with demons to feel nothing at all
Like he is a machine for tasks, no asking against fall

He kept walking alone because he is made for this
He knows life will cost his negativity against bliss
He is soul and he wants to live as soul for all
No desires or fulfilment but only love he can give to all.