Lately I've been wondering - have had too many thoughts in my head,
Thoughts about mistakes and good times, decisions and regret,
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In life we make choices, and it's only afterwards we get to reflect,
To silently sit and ponder; 'was this for the best, did I fail or did I do it correct?'
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There was a time where I only did wrong; robberies, graffiti and mugging,
I stole things for money and money for weed, all so I could continue doing my drugging.
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Today I have regrets; they are lessons I shouldn't have learned mentally,
How to cook heroin, snort coke and be high on ecstasy,
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But now I know and I regret it, but not for the reasons you think,
After a lesson learned, you should know better - you should have that missing link,
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Instead of a soul-wash, a life better, embracing that miracle saving,
All I can feel inside me and hear speak to me, is an urge, a craving,
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Good deeds are like bubbles, so fragile and easy to blow,
Even though they are prettiest alive, we still choose to pop them, why do we do so?
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It's the decisions that we make that define who we are, they say;
'it's the thought that counts', but guess what, my only thoughts are about MDMA.
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At the end of a poem, there's suppose to be a message,
A valuable point to teach the readers I've moved on from being a wreckage,
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But truth is, I might be sober right now, but I'm just as fucked up inside as I was before,
Just waking up and staying on track everyday is a goddamn chore,
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I'll say this though, once you find the thing that balances the scale,
It's like finding an angel - Jesus - the holy freaking grail,
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That's about the size of it, I got nothing more to say,
I'll put my pen down now and go pay the bills I got to pay.
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Beyond The Needle
Poetry"Explosions are my specialty, I can and will be your doom, Now get down on your knees, baby, I'll make your world go boom." • • • Unconventional poems of a conformed man. I voice all my inner chaotic turmoils in rhyming words so they sound less path...