All I Want 《taekook》

~Chapter 5~

Taehyung distract them. 

The pressured boy looked down at his full plate of food confusingly.

Just like I taught you earlier. 

Taehyung gave a slight nod to himself as he watched his mother and father eating their dinner. 

"Taehyung aren't you hungry?" His mother set her utensils down and looked up at her son with a look of worry in her eyes.

"Yes Mom. Actually, I'm starving!" Taehyung forced his signature smile oh his face as he picked up his utensils. "I was just thinking about school today and all."

"Ahhh how is school going by the way?" His father piped in. 

Lie. 

"Great." Taehyung tried to smile even wider. "I'm passing all my classes and I even got an A on my English test the other day." 

"We're so proud of you Tae." His mother said while gesturing to herself and her husband. "You're so bright." 

Ha no you're not. 

'I know..' Tae responded to the voice in his head. 

The truth was, was that Taehyung's grades had been dropping significantly. And he, himself, couldn't even pin point the reason why. It was almost as if he has just lost all motivation.

"This is so delicious, Mom." Taehyung complimented as he cut off another piece of steak. 

"I'm glad you think so." She smiled joyfully. 

Conversations continued: smiling, laughing, and...eating. 

All the while, Taehyung was thinking about so much...too much. He wanted to throw up; to go lay down. He felt so sick. 

"Well Mom, Dad I'm so full. This was delicious." Taehyung let out a fake yawn as he pushed some of the food on his plate into little clumps. "And exhausted too. Goodnight!" 

"Oh okay. Are you sure you ate enough?" His mom questioned while glancing at his plate. Taehyung was mid way towards the trashcan when his mom questioned him; he gulped slightly as he prepared his lie. 

"Yes, Mom." He turned around slightly, smiling a soft, sweet smile. "I'm actually really full." 

"Okay well goodnight Tae." His mother smiled at him and his father nodded slightly at him before engaging in more conversation with his wife. Taehyung quickly scraped all of the food that was on his plate into the trash, not giving it another glance. 

As he walked up the stairs, he smiled to himself. 

I'm so proud of you, Taehyung. 

"Me too." Taehyung whispered in triumph. He almost felt as if he had some type of power over something for once in his life. "But am I beautiful yet?" 

The voice's laugh echoed throughout his mind. 

Oh no silly Taehyung. You have't even lost any weight yet. 

"Oh." Taehyung sulked as he sat criss cross on his bed; pulling the blanket and sheet completely over his head. 

But don't worry. You'll get here.

Taehyung smiled again, feeling happy with the mix of motivation and praise he was receiving. 

"I'll be so skinny."

Skinny. 

Taehyung's only dream. 

Yes Taehyung, you'll be so skinny.