When I get home I grab my teddy bear and turn on Criminal minds. I wait until my parents get home and then I eat. All the sudden my phone buzzes. When I pull out my phone it's a text from Zach
Zachey Bear❤️~ Are you going to see him in the hospital
Me~ I was gonna go .idk if I can handle it will you come with?
Zachey Bear❤️~ Yea I'm on my way now see u soon.
I throw on some sweats and a Nike sweatshirt putting my hair up. When Zach gets here I get in the car and we go to the hospital to see Jack. We walk up to his room and I slowly walk in seeing his sister there. I run and hug her. "I'm so sorry" I say with all sincerity. I take one look at him and tears rush down my face. "N-no. T-that can't be him" I let out a sob and fall to the ground. "H-he wouldn't do this" I run and grab the clip board look at the cause. The words hit me like a truck Attemtped Suicide. I choke on a sob and drop the clip board running out of the room. I run to the stairs and go down then running to the car. I sit there and cry my eyes out. No this can't be happening. We promised each other. I see zach walk out and he drives me home in silence. When I get home I go to my room and shut off the light going to bed trying to forget everything. I wake up that morning and throw on some cloths not caring what it is. I walk into the bathroom and open the mirror grabbing out a small razor and putting it in the pocket of my backpack.
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When I walk down stairs everyone gives me a lot of pity I ignore it an grab an apple eating it. "Time to go" my step mom says and I walk outside into the car. When I get to school I walk inside not even bothering to say hi to anyone. I plug in my headphones and drown myself in music. It's the only think I have left anymore. I walk to my locker and open in grabbing my book. When I shut my locker I'm surprised to see Ethan there "Hey Jess" he says with a smile. I give him a fake one back "Hi" I walk away and into my first hour which is math sadly I don't do any work and just listen to music. When I get to English I sit in my normal seat and then I hear announcements all I hear is A dear student jack before I get up and run out of class to the bathroom. I lock myself in the stall and look in the pocket of my backpack for my blade before rolling up my sleeve.
CAUTION SELF HARM IF YOU ARE NOT OK WITH THAT WAIT U TILL YOU SEE******* these again.
I slowly make one slit on my wrist and whimper in pain. 1. For being dumb 2. For not helping jack 3. For being worthless 4. For being fucked up 5. For being ugly 6. For being selfish 7. For being an attention whore 8. For not being normal 9. For being A whore 10. For being a mistake. By this time I'm crying in pain as I slide down the wall. I wrap my up wrist and walk out of the bathroom seeing Ethan there "oh my god Ethan you scared me" he looked at me and then to my wrist " I heard you" he says and grabs my wrist. And whimper in pain as he rolls up my sleeves seeing all of the cuts.
Your good *****
He pulls my in for a hug and I stiffen. "I'm fine Ethan" he continues to hug me. When he lets go he grabs my phone and types in his number. "If you ever need anything. Call me text me I don't care I'll be there." I smile at him a little and nod walking away. The rest of the day goes by fast as I walk out of school I bump into someone and drop my books. All of the football players laugh and I try to ignore them. "Oh my god I'm so sorry I wasn't looking where I was going and" I'm cut off mid sentence by looking up and seeing that it Was Ethan "no its my fault Jess I'm sorry" I smile and say sorry once more before walking home. When I get home I start reading on watt pad about random things and watching videos on YouTube. I see my phone buzz and I pick it up to see that Ethan texted
Unknown-Hey it's Ethan. I just wanted to check on you after today
Me- I'm fine. Why were you hanging out with all those ass holes after school?
I change his contact name to Ethan and s continue to look through my phone. After school Ethan was hanging out with the Jerks on the football team who are nothing but bully's except Joe who is one of my best friends
Ethan- What do you mean
Me- I mean the football team the are all jerks except joe who is my friend
Ethan- oh I didn't tell you I play foot ball lmao
Me- oh really? Well don't turn into one of them okay XD
Ethan- I won't lol
Me- well hey I'm gonna go to bed I'm tired night
Ethan- night ✌️
I shut off phone and pull the covers up going to bed for the night.
