Sex Lessons | L.H

50. Deal

A.N// this is jam packed...get ready
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Kate's POV

Luke's face looked panicked as he tried to come up with something to say to me. I wasn't necessarily mad, just confused. I also weirdly thought it was a sweet gesture, just gone about the wrong way.

My main concern was that he technically lied to me, and it wasn't a small lie either. I let him have something that meant a lot to me because he offered to make sure I was extremely comfortable, especially with our relationship at the time. This was odd because I trusted him, but the whole time I wasn't in on his secret.

I had this funny feeling in my stomach, that I couldn't describe. I looked over to Jack, and I could see it on his face that he knew he'd messed up, that I definitely wasn't supposed to know that. Regret and guilt started to settle in his facial features, and I instantly felt bad about turning this into something bigger than it probably needed to be.

It wasn't my intention to, I was just caught by surprise, and I felt like I deserved an explanation since I was a big part of the situation.

Ben was still standing off to the side, eyes wide, but not from shock. Maybe it was from my shock. It seemed like he thought Luke had already told me, and he hadn't expected this reveal to unfold like it did.

The room was silent for a few moments, Ben and Jack staying quiet for the sake of not spilling anymore unknown information. Luke, I assumed was just trying to gather his thoughts to form a reasonable explanation for me.

With every second that passed, my imagination running wild with possibilities, it was like the air was getting thicker. Luke's eyes were searching my face, trying to figure out my emotions only the way he knew how, but at this point I was guarded. Not even I knew how I was feeling.

The agonizing silence was finally broken by Luke when he made eye contact with me.

"Come here, Kate," he directed. My eyes diverted from his to take another look at Ben and Jack. They were both watching me intently, and I couldn't help but to feel like I was being silently judged by the both of them.

I don't know what they knew, but I couldn't base my decision off of what I didn't know, so reluctantly, I walked over to him. Once I got there, my hands were awkward swaying by my side and I was staring at my feet. He grabbed my hands into his and pulled me closer to him, and I still made no effort to make eye contact.

Luke put both of my hands into one of his and used his free hand to lift my chin so I could meet his eyes. His brothers were watching the entire exchange, their eyes glued to every move made by Luke and I.

"Can you guys give us a minute?" Luke requested, never breaking our eye contact. It was so intense, his perfect shade of blue eyes peering into mine, trying to read me, but I knew he could get through.

"Yeah, sure." Jack got up first and slowly left the room, Ben following closely behind and closing the door once he'd fully exited. Luke's attention, which had never really left me in the first place, was now focused solely on me and our situation right now.

He placed a simple, brief kiss on my forehead, and my eyes fluttered closed at the feeling. It was the same one I always got, the same one I never got tired of because it was the most addicting thing I'd ever experienced. Usually, I would've smiled at the gesture, but I couldn't seem to bring myself to.

Instead, I bit the inside of my cheek and tried to swallow the lump in my throat before I spoke.

"Luke, will you please tell me what's going on? What was Jack talking about?" I asked him, a pout involuntarily covered my face. Every time some sort of drama came up, I always got the same uncontrollable feeling, and no matter how strong I willed myself to be, most of the time it didn't work and I crumbled on the brink of the downfall.