Ruined. [RESTRICTED] (On-hold)

Chapter 2.

"Mum, yung shoulder bag ko nga po pala?" Bigla kong naalala yung shoulder bag ko.

"Andito na, kanina nakita ko sa couch kaya pinasok ko na rito sa kotse nang konti nalang dalin mo."

"Thanks mum," I gave her a smile. Muntik ko na nanamang makalimutan, di naman kasi ako masyadong maabubot sa katawan kaya di ako masyadong gumagamit ng bag.

It's a long 2 hours drive so I'm pretty sure mahaba-haba pa ang pag-iisip ko sa plano ko pagdating ko sa uni. I do have a lot of plans so that's why I don't need to waste any second of time and I'm going to think about it now, as in right now. Just how I want everything to be organised and planned para hindi ako maghahabol sa mga bagay-bagay.

First of all, after stepping on that university I want to see my dorm first. Good thing yung nakuha namin ng mum ko single room lang dahil ayoko ng may ka-roomate gusto ko tahimik, lalo na kapag nag-aaral ako. Ayoko ng may ka-share ng room hindi ako komportable, pwera nalang sa mga cousins ko when they're visiting me and my mum in our house I need to share my room with them because it's necessary kasi isa lang guest room sa bahay di naman kasi ganoon kalaki bahay namin para maka-occupy ng maraming bisita.

That's one of the very best thing na nagustuhan ko sa Griffin State University, may single dorms for students who doesn't want to share their room para wala na rin masyadong distraction at puro concentrate lang ang mangyari saakin. The last thing I want is to ruin my plans and I don't want that to happen, I wouldn't let anything or anyone ruin my plans. This is my dream and matagal kong pinagplanuhan to at ayokong masira lang yun ng basta basta na lang.

Second is I want to find a part-time job that will keep me occupied instead on just doing nothing on my room after my classes, tulong ko na rin yun sa mum ko. Ayoko na kasing masyadong umasa sakanya. Since I've got my freedom now, I want to take care of it myself and the last thing I want was to bothered her. And also making money on my own will be so much better, I can do anything I want and I can buy anything I want but for sure I know I'll be responsible for it dahil ayokong susugod ang mum ko sa dorm ko nang dahil sa pag-aalala. I'm pretty sure I wont do any reckless things.

Also having a job and making my own money will grant me to buy a car, kailangan ko na talagang bumili ng kotse for good reasons. I'll be living own my own now, sigurado ako na ayokong palaging maglakad at magcommute nalang. Good thing may ipon ako kahit papaano bago ako mag-uni.

Actually, I wanted to work in an office or in a bookstore since I do really love to read books. Reading is one of my passion so that's why I wanted to work where I know I can enjoy myself even though I'm working. But my course is not related in the job I want to have, I'm a Management Accounting student my dad's profession before at gusto ko syang gayahin dahil marami kasi akong nakitang awards nya sa work nya nung nabubuhay pa sya, at base na rin sa mga kwento ng mum ko magaling talaga ang dad ko sa profession nya at kapag ikinukwento saakin yun ng mum ko, sobrang saya nya. I always saw her face with full of love and proud kapag kinukwento nya yun kaya isa yun sa mga bagay na nakapang hikayat saakin na kunin ang tinapos ng dad ko.

My mum was beyond happy when I told her that time na yun din ang course na kukunin ko, she always saying to me that my dad will be so happy and proud of me. I love my dad so much kahit hindi ko sya naalala sa childhood memories ko, but when I'm looking our pictures it seems like we're always happy. Like our happiness was not going to die. But he still did left me and my mum, well that what's life is. You don't know what to expect.

"Kleinz? Are you happy?" My mum suddenly asked, her focused is straight on the road. And my head turned to her suddenly too.

"Yes mum, I am happy. This is what I always want. My dreams are not only for me, it's for us.. You, me and dad." I genuinely tell her with a loving smile.

"I love you so much and I am so proud of you and your dad too. If only he's here, he'll be more proud and happy than me." She turned her head to me quickly then going back to road again.

I sighed. A happy sighed, "I know mum and I'll be the happiest daughter in the world. " I laughed after the last words I told her.

She chuckled and goes back her attention to the road again. Since it's a long ride I fished out my phone from my shoulder bag and unlocked it and opened my twitter. Updating a tweet that I'll be going now in GSU and sadly living my hometown.

After a few minutes, I've got replies and retweets from my friends in high school saying goodluck and take care and I quickly replied thanks to them. After scrolling and reading some more tweets I finally decide to off my phone may pinag stop over-an na rin kasi kami. Bumaba ang mum ko to buy some foods para sa natitira pang oras na nasa biyahe kami para hindi naman kami ma-bored hindi naman kasi kami masyadong madaldal ng mum ko.

After going back to the car my mum hand me the food, and I nod while mumbling thanks to her because I already dig on my food. She ate too and taking a little rest for another hour of drive, babalik pa kasi ulit sya saamin. Nagleave nga sya ngayon sa work mahatid nya lang ako sa GSU.

After we finished our food she begins to bring the life of the car again, driving and focusing again in the road. Since I don't having nothing to do, I turned the radio on flipping the station that having soft music that will make me fall asleep. I adjust the passenger seat, I bend it a little para medyo nakahiga yung pwesto ko. After feeling more comportable I drift off to sleep, saving energy para mamaya dahil paniguradong mag-aayos ako ng mga gamit ko.

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"Kleinz? Kleinz?" My mum called me while shaking my shoulders a little. I groaned lightly and blinking a few times and taking the scene na nasa harap ko.

I am here now, ang lugar kung saan mag-uumpisa ang lahat.