Bored AF

updates

so uhm nothing serious

girl I have crush on hugged me today and we never hug

uhhmmmm nothing crazy though, its been okay

last night I kept thinking of... all of this and I couldnt STOP cryinG WHy

so yeah
this all still sucks
I hate it

but, again, I'm giving it the rest of the year

by then it'll be three years of confusion #wowie

whatelsewhatelsewhatelse

uhm I kept wanting to say out loud "I'm so gay" but I'm not gay guys what

also, today at lunch, I was trying to lock arms with my friend Sofia and she moved away so quick and said "miss me with that gay shit"

I know she was joking but it hurt juuuuust a little

*cries in spanish*

and then after practice I got into the car and told my mom about this junior who ik hates me and my mom said "is he gay?"

and I said "yeah"

and she said "ooohh I hate gay people, they're so rude, as if the world owes them something"

I was like
:] ok mom [:

then I said "not all of them are like that"

and she said "no, I know, Andy isn't like that."

Andy is her best friend who is hella gay

and she told me why gay people make her mad and I was just like "ok mum I'll just sit in the corner and think about dick thanks"

so yea

emotional day but not so bad

I see my cousins tomorrow so maybe I'll have the guts to let them know what I'm going through idkkkkk

pray for me please and thanks god bless

I still hate this feeling
I don't want to be gay
this wasn't my choice
let me run freE

UH I THINK THATS IT K THANKS BYE