I'll hold my breath (boyxboy)

THE TRUTH

That night I couldn't keep Leah's words out of my head 'keep your guards up' what the hell did she mean, I was so confused. How can she tell me to keep my guards up around Liam, he's all I've ever wanted and she isn't even giving him a chance. my phone rang while I was lost in thought, it was my mom

"Hi ma"

"Hi sweetie, how are you doing so far?" she acted as if I was going to die without her

"I'm fine mom"

"Did you eat?"

"Yes"

"Did you clean your room?" seriously?!

"Yes"

"Don't forget to throw out the garbage"

"I won't ma"

"Alright sweetie, well I can't stay so I'll talk to you tomorrow ok?"

"Alright mom"

"Love you darling"

"You too" and we hung up. Leah's word played in my head over and over again to the point where I called Liam, one of them knows something I don't

"Hey you" he answered

"Liam... hi"

"What's wrong?"

"I don't know, I just can't stop thinking about something Leah said to me earlier"

"What'd she say?" He sounds concern

"She told me to keep my guards up around you"

He sighed "she said that"

"Leah's not a bad person Liam and she knows what's best for me but she's hiding something an I can't help but think that it's about you" he went silent. "Hello?"

"Umm Brett I have something to tell you" oh god what could it be! I wasn't ready, I didn't want to lose him so soon but I stayed cool

"Sure you want to hang out tomorrow and tell me?"

"No I have to tell you tonight"

"Sounds serious, tell me now"

"It can't be over the phone, can I come by?"

"Right now?, it's like 10 something"

"Is that a problem?"

"No not at all" my hearts beating faster than it should be I could see the outline of it through my shirt

"Alright I'm on my way" he hung up and I panicked. I don't know what to do so I called Leah

It rang and she didn't answer so I called again and after the third ring she picked up "yes Brett"

"Leah I need your help please!"

"Alright calm down, what happened?"

"Liam is coming over he says he has to talk to me and I'm scared" she stayed quiet "I need you Leah"

"Brett whatever Liam has to tell you you have to listen, Liam is a great guy But Brett there are somethings we must face"

"Leah I'm so confused, why can't you just tell me?" it would make life much easier if she did

"I am in no position to tell Brett, just try not to freak out and if you need me afterwards know that I am here for you alright" ugh I'm tired of her riddles

"Whatever Leah don't tell me, I'll find out for myself." I hung up and threw my phone on the night stand near my bed and just went in the bathroom to prepare. 'What if he breaks up with you? what if this was just a joke? what if You imagined this whole thing?' My head was full of what ifs but I couldn't let that bother me.

I went downstairs and sat on the couch waiting for him, I've never been more terrified in my life but I couldn't show it, I couldn't show how serious this was to me. As I am trying to make myself feel better I heard a car door slam and I panicked all over again 'Brett calm down just breathe' I kept on telling myself as I walk towards the door and before he could even knock I opened it

"Hey" 'smile Brett' I smiled

"Hi" he said with a frowned face, I moved aside so he could come in. "Brett I-"

I cut him off "wait before you tell me let's go sit down" I grabbed his hand and walked to the couch

"Now tell me"

"Brett you mean so much to me, I didn't know you could like someone so much just from spending such little time with them and I do really like you Brett.." I kept a straight face trying not to blush because I knew there's a "but" coming soon "I was lucky enough to meet you when I came here..." he went silent and I knew it I knew that this is where the "but" comes in, so to save him the trouble I said it for him

"But...?"

He took a deep breath and went on "but I have to leave"

"Umm leave, leave how? like visit somewhere?" 'Stay calm Brett'

" no this was my visit now I have to go back home" I tried I really did but I couldn't help it I couldn't sit here and watch as I lose the best thing that's ever happened to me. Tears were about to fall down my face and I didn't want him to see

I got up out of my seat "you should go" I walked towards the door and opened it still trying to fight back the tears

"Brett I'm sorry I didn't mean for this-"

"No it's fine just please go" 'don't cry yet Brett keep fighting them'

"Brett please" I couldn't take his sad face he looked so hurt which makes no sense because I'm the one who should be hurt

"No Liam you knew what this was and kept it from me and now I probably look stupid for thinking that this was actually real" the tears fell and I didn't care I just wanted him to go "just please go" I shut the door and collapsed in front of it crying.