letters | kim seokjin

eight

Dear Aubree,

Tomorrow. You were leaving tomorrow.
Our 30 days ended yesterday...
I sit in my room, alone and thinking.
I remember it clearly.

"So, it's the 30th day..." you said.
I sigh. I was scared.
"Yeah..."
"Seokjin... you know we have to separate now," you said. I can hear your nervous breaths.
"I... I–" I said.
I couldn't help myself. Tears started to fall from my face.
"Jin... I won't forget you," you cried, wiping my tears with your thumb. Both of us were crying.
I shook my head.
"You're not coming back...?"
You shook your head vigorously, crying. I cried harder.
"Bree, I love you. Please, ju–"
You cut me off.
"If I do come back... are you willing to wait for me?"
I sob, pulling you into a hug.
"For you, I could wait forever."
You shook your head that was on my shoulder.
"I'm so sorry... Seokjin... forgive me," you cried.
"Shh, it's okay."
"I love you... I'm sorry..."
"I love you too... I understand," I cried. I hugged you tighter.
I never wanted you to go away from me again...
"Seokjin..." you kept saying my name over and over.
I was speechless. I didn't know what to say. All my emotions were reckless.
"Promise me..." I stopped.
"Promise me you won't forget me."
You wrapped your arms around my neck.
"Never."

That was yesterday.
And now... I did it.
I sent the first letter.

I knocked on your front door, placing the letter on the ground. I ran away and looked for a place to hide.
And I watched you as you got the letter off of the ground and went back inside.
Stay...

Love,
Kim Seokjin