Saving My Bedmate (boyxboy)

First Day

Lex

I'm Lexter Philips. 19 years old and currently on my 3rd year, finishing Bachelor of Science in Accountancy. Hindi naman ako athletic pero ang katawan ko ay naturally built to look muscular. I do few rounds of jogging around our subdivision, usually three to four times a week, depende pag walang pasok or if my schedule is loose. Mahirap kasi minsan pagsabayin ang pagiging looking good at pag-eexcel sa class. Hindi naman sa pagbubuhat ng sariling bangko but I do excel in class and is often chosen to be part of a team to represent the school in competitions both nationally and internationally. Siguro may sipa rin ang konting looks kasi maraming nag sasabing gwapo ako especially my mom.

Our family can cope with life. We're not very wealthy but whenever my brother and I ask for things, our parents can immediately provide it for us. Minsan nga, medyo napapaabuso na rin ang madalas naming paghingi-hingi ng kapatid ko kung kaya't hindi naiiwasan na mapagsabihan kami especially by our mom. Kung strict siya sa'min, we can't blame it all on her kasi lumaki siya under a much stricter family. Strict in a sense na dapat all works and actions are gender appropriate.

Yes, marami sigurong mag rereact kung bakit ganun ang pamamalakad ng mom ko pero hindi ko rin siya masisisi kasi she's only doing these things because of her love for us. Oh! You might be wondering why I mix Filipino and English. I studied in the states for ten years while living with my aunt and cousins. Ngayong college lang ako pinayagang bumalik ng Pilipinas kasi my grandmother got sick and kailangang may kasama siya sa bahay na family member, 24/7. Sabi kasi ng doktor, mas mapapabilis ang recovery niya if she feels more secured and cherised. Unlike us, mas mayaman ang lola ko dahil na rin sa tatlong businesses niya na ngayo'y minamanage by my father and my aunt.

Today's the first day of my third year in college and ni konting saya ay parang wala akong nararamdaman. The wounds left by my recent break up with Sarah was so deep, I'm not even sure if it's healing. Three months have passed pero it still feels just as painful as that time when she said she wanted to break up with me. Moving on is really a difficult thing to do especially if magkasama kayo for almost four years. We'd been classmates since high school and I courted her during our sophomore year. After a year ng panliligaw, she said yes and my first prom became very magical.

"Lex, bangon na." I heard Manang Dori calling.

"Yes, po! Be right there in a moment."

My life would never be as meaningful as before. I lost my purpose. Hindi na ata ako makakahanap ng katulad ni Sarah. We parted without closure. Ni hindi ko alam bakit niya ako binreak. Basta ayun na, nangyari na lang bigla. I tried contacting her on her phone after that break up. Nakaka sampung calls na ako pero walang sumasagot. I went to her house pero walang tao. I even talked to her closest friends but everybody's mouth is tight-shut. No one wants to talk to me. Nobody's giving any hints.

And so, after a month of trying and stalking, I gave up. I'm very open with my relationships to my family. During those times when I was down, they were the ones who encouraged me to move forward. Sometimes, I'm tempted to adopt my brother's lifestyle—collect hearts and be merry—but the angel side of my conscience is telling me otherwise. And I tend to always listen to my angel.

NP: Through the fire by Nina

¯¯I look in your eyes and I can see

You love so dangerously

You're not trusting your heart to anyone

You tell me you're gonna play it smart

We're through before we start

But I believe that we've only just begun

When it's this good there's no saying no

I love you so I'm ready to go ¯¯

Everytime I hear this song palagi kong naaalala si Sarah.

*flashback*

Our happy times together, our little fights, our sweet moments. On our second anniversary, we promised na kahit anong mangyari, kami parin till the end. That we'll be together come what may. I even said that I'd take a bullet for her at dahil dun, napaiyak ko siya.

*end of flashback*

"Oh kasya pa dalawa dyan! Kaliwa, kaliwa, usod lng konti kasya pa. Paki-abot nalang ng bayad."

Medyo nahimasmasan ako ng bumalik ang isipan ko sa realidad. Kumuha ako ng bente pesos tsaka iniabot sa driver. "Kuya, isa lang po. Estudyante."

"Aba noy, hindi ka naka uniporme ah. Sigurado ka bang estudyante ka?"

"opo kuya. Wala kasing uniporme ang school namin pero meron akong ID"

"oh siya, sige! Ano ba namang paaralan yan at walang uniporme?"

Instead of rebutting his argument, nagsmile nalang ako to hide my annoyance. This is what I always do especially in heated situations. Hinahayaan ko na lamang na huwag nang sumagot pa kasi hindi rin naman ako sanay na makipagtalo.

*flashback*

"Bakit kasi tumatahimik ka nalang pag inaaway kita?" galit na sabi ni Sarah.

"What can I do? Hindi ako sanay na makipagtalo. Instead, I'd rather listen than argue," I smilingly answered.

"You know what Lex? This. I'm tired of this! I hate it when you are this way. I don't know what you are thinking, I can't even reach your thoughts! Hell, would I give anything just to have a glimpse of what you are feeling." Then she stormed out.

*end of flashback*

Iyon ang huli naming pag-uusap ni Sarah before she left me. I'm not sure if that's the reason of her disappearance pero kung iyon nga, napakababaw na dahilan naman yun considering our four years together. I decided to wipe that thought off in my head and decided to focus on the way.

Nang ilingi ko ang aking ulo, nakita ko na halos lahat pala ng pasahero ay nakatingin sa akin. Nakaramdam ako bigla ng hiya. Hindi rin kasi ako sanay na ibinabaling lahat ng atensyon sa akin lalo na't hindi ko kilala ang mga taong nakapaligid sa akin.

Sa lahat ng pasahero sa jeep, isa ang nakatawag ng aking pansin. Sa may bandang dulo, merong isang lalaking naka black jeans, white rubber shoes, at white tshirt na nakafold ang sleeves. Nakangisi ito na mapang-asar habang tumatanaw sa direksyon ko. Ewan ko ba at nakaramdam ako bigla ng pagka inis sa mukha niya. Nagkatitigan kami at sinikap kong hindi dapat ako ang unang kakalas sa pagtitinginang iyon. All my negative emotions started to build up, fueling my rage.

I sharpened my look which caused him to back off a bit though that wasn't enough to divert his gaze. Nakaramdam ako ng konting pagkapanalo when I saw a momentary change in his facial expression. Akala ko iiwas na siya ng tingin but I was caught off guard when he winked at me and raised the right side of his lips causing a sly smile.