Not just a fan

~100~

 [Edited 28/2/2018]

I wake up by a pill going down my thought.

First I wanna scream, wake Jack up, but I don't.

Instead I see Ryan and my body goes over to him and I start to kiss him.

He drags me out of the room, over to the living room.

~HumHumHum~

"M-Mark?" I hear a sad voice say.

I look over to see him, Jack.

Ryan quickly goes away from me, but the drug is still in charge of my body and it wants Ryan.

"W-why...Mar-rk..." Jack stutter and a tear goes down his cheek.

Jack, no...

I try to take the control over my body but it doesn't work, instead I start to kiss Ryan again.

FUCK YOU DRUG

I hear Jack crying, and the front door closing behind him. 

My mind wants to follow him, give him a warm bear hug.

But I can't.

Ryan just keeps going like nothing happened, but all I can think about is Jack.

~2 hours later~

I wake up in fear on the couch.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

I rush out to the bedroom.

Jack's not there.

I check the bathrooms and the office before I take my jacket and run out in the cold.

Where could he be?

I don't know the neighbourhood yet so after 5 minutes I'm lost.

"Jack!!! Please Jack come back!!!" I scream but there's no answer.

I continue to walk for about half an hour until I reach a playground.

I remember the playground, I were there with Jack on a date once.

Slowly I walk over to the swing and sit on it, freezing

Jack...please come back