Poetry

11/30/16 - Here I am, Here She Is.

My heart is pounding
I'm feeling like I'm drowning
But the words just come out
And I know it's you, not me

My mind is still in shock
My body is slowly coming back from numb
I'm blaming myself
Wanting to cry every time I think of it
But yet I can still see the light
And you are giving me that light.

I'm able to dance my anger,
My frustration,
My sadness away
Everyday.

But I know it won't stay away.
Only you can heal me.

Thinking I'm something bigger than I'm not
Getting buried under something that I'm not
Seeing the negative in the most sunny of days
Trying to figure what exactly I'm feeling inside.

I can't

So here am,
She's not mine to heal,
She's yours
She is yours.

So here I am,
Giving her to you.
Because I know when she's in your hands
She won't be sad and blue.

I'm not expecting a whole one-eighty
Not in a day
Or a month,
I just want her
back.

Because I miss her smile,
Her fierce comebacks,
Her sassy jokes,
And how I knew that she could stand up if I was ever down.

I miss that feeling.
I miss her.

So here I am,
Giving her to you.

My heart is pounding,
And I feel like I'm drowning.
But now that you're taking care of her
And can start to take care of me too.

Here she is,
Take her heart,
And make her into,
The person,
The Faith,
Who she truly is.

Here she is.