Poetry

12/2/16 - Feeling Played

I had known you before I saw you.

Your picture was in a frame

I said he was cute

And walked away.

Skip ahead a year

And suddenly

We were friends 

We hug,

We laugh,

And you even lift me up

It was only a matter of time

When the butterflies started

Every time you were around.

I actually liked you.

But I a sit here today thinking back 

I feel played,

Like I was doll.

You messed with 

My mind

My feelings

Two things that are mine.

I feel sad and angry when I think of you

I'm feeling played.

I was able to hang out with you more

Feeling happy every time you

Talked to me

Hugged me

And the feeling would last for hours

Then you found out 

And you backed away.

You didn't talk or even come near me.

I was sad

But a blew it off and said "okay"

The text came out of the blue

Not even to me

To my friend 

Saying you liked me

I was shocked confused

But that happiness returned

And I wasn't sure what to do.

But as I sit here thinking back

I feel played,

Like I was a doll

You messed with my mind,

My feelings,

Two things that are mine,

I feel sad and angry when I think of you

I'm feeling played.

You led me on

You danced with me

Tried to sweep me off my feet

 You even almost kissed me.

Then there was the silence,

After he asked me out,

I said no because I wasn't allowed to yet,

He said he'd wait.

He lied. 

But as I sit here thinking back,

I feel played,

Like I was a doll

You messed with my mind,

My feelings, 

Two things that are mine.

I feel sad and angry every time I think of you

I'm feeling played.

After all this time,

I thought I'd done something wrong.

I find out the truth.

He was going to play me,

But when he couldn't have me

He gave up,

Continued to move on.

So I was almost played,

I think.

I know.

And I'm grateful that I wasn't.

But I can't help but be

 Feeling played.