fighting for my sanity

void

Empty.

Is the feeling when we don't know what to feel or how to feel. It's a feeling you can never get over no matter how hard you try. The feeling will always be there to remind you how truly void and alone you are no matter how many people are around you. Curling up into a ball every night trying to deal with how hard it is for you to handle this feeling. How you wish for someone to set you free from this night mare. You keep thinking to yourself why? Why? Why me? Why do I always feel alone? Putting on a smile for everyone so the can't see the void you have. Is it ok to feel like this? No it can't be because than everyone would feel like this and there would be a solution or a doctor you can go to but there's not. You want to tell someone instead of keeping it bottled up but, who can you tell? Your family? Your friends? Your therapist? Who? The answer is no one because they won't understand how you feel. They won't understand the feeling you have to carry on every single day. They can only imagine how you feel. The feeling that makes you want to scream out and let it go but it will always come back weather your with your friends, your family, it will come back ten times harder for you to carry. This burden you have to carry with you every where every day of the year. It gets heavier and heavier each time and it drags you down deeper into the feeling that leaves you feeling. Helpless, alone, sad and............void