fighting for my sanity

alone

Its so quiet.
No sound.
No one
Else but me.
Walking in a pitch
Black room.
Alone.
But than I would
See flashes.
Of random
People with Someone.
Its not fair!!
Why do they get to
Have someone
By them?
Why am I the only one
That has to be alone!?
Seeing the smiles.
That I wish I could
Give.
Laughs that I wish
I could share too.
People I wish I could
Talk to.
But I don't deserve
Something like that do I?
No. I must not because
everyone just leaves.
They promise that they
Won't. But eventually
They do and then I'm all
Alone again.
Walking in a dark room.
Meet.
Promise.
Leave.
Dark.
Repeat.
Same cycle over and over
Again.
Never ending.
Never slowing down.
Forever and always
Alone.