~Paradise~
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I saw you today,
You were smiling,
But my heart dropped.
Suddenly my throat felt dry
With a lump in my throat.
She made him smile.
I wiped the tear away,
And closed my eyes.
I saw you, I pictured myself
Talking to you instead
Of her.
It was a dark paradise,
My paradise.
Not his,
Not her's,
My Dark Paradise.
I refused to open them,
No.
I didn't want to.
But I just want to clarify
This is not a dream.
I opened them and saw them
walking
Side by side.
I expected it,
I wasn't mad at her.
She wants him, like I want him.
My new Rival,
But I don't want to fight for him.
Why am I still chasing you?
Someone has interest in you,
Yet you decide to fuck with me.
The only person I was mad at,
Was myself,
For still loving
Him.
