The Promise (One-Shot)

I'm Sorry,I Love You

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                I arrived at the hospital and went straight to the hospital’s reception desk. I’m about to ask

the nurse when Andie’s Mum caught my eye, standing in front of a certain room just at the corner of

the building. I walk straight to her instead. As I was approaching closer to her, I notice that she’s in

tears, crying herself to bits trying to shed those tears that keep on streaming down her cheeks. I

ask her why she was crying, as well as my bestfriend’s state. She said that she hates seeing

everyone around her – don’t want to talk nor see everybody including her. She's now hating people

more after that horrendous incident that happened to her – after that prick took her innocence away

from her. She used to scream and cried a lot every time that incident haunts and crosses her mind.

Then she sobs again. Gutted, sad and frustrated, I went inside her room to see her.

               I scan the whole room. Andie was sitting quietly, staring blankly at nowhere while shocked

and terrified expression was absolutely visible on her face. My knee starts to tremble, as well as my

shoulders, like I’m starting to feel absolutely helpless and hurt seeing her state. I slowly walk

closer to her while my eyes never leave hers, and then I siton the chair beside her bed. She was

still staring at nowhere, her face was pale and her lips are so  dry. That mesmerising and

enchanting look on her big, brown eyes was no more, as well as those sweet, shy smile on her

lips. All I can see was just a gloomy, terrified and miserable face of her,of my bestfriend – of my girl.

My eyes starts to get blurry, like my tears will gonna fall down any moment from now while I’m still

staring at her. I gently but carefully grab her hand and squeeze it. She didn’t move, nor responded

back on what I did. My tears starts to fall, streaming down continuously while looking at her. Silence

was all over on that room - then I suddenly broke it.

                                "I’m ..... I’m sorry, Andie. I’m so sorry if I didn’t save you from that bastard who

violently took your innocence away from you. I’m, I-I’m sorry if I didn’t talk to you at all on that night,

restraining myself to get near you and totally  ignore you coz I’m too selfish thinking what I feel. I’m

such an absolute twat to let you go with him, that I didn’t take the courage to ask you to be my date a

day before instead just to protect you from that prick. It’s all my fault - it’s all my fecking fault that’s

why it happened to you .I totally and utterly blame myself for this – that I totally blame myself coz I’m

not there to help youwhen you need me the most. If only I could turn back the time, that moment

when I first saw you, I will never, ever hesitate to tell you that, that I love you – that I love you since the

day I saw you, that day you entered our classroom, that you never fail to mesmerise me every time

we’re together. That I don’t love you as my friend but, I love you so much and I want you to be my girl

that I can protect from the bastards around you … I love you, Andie. I love you so, so much and, and

I’m sorry … I-I’m so, so sorry…"

                I burst myself in tears. I cried myself to bits, feeling so utterly sorry for myself and feeling

absolutely guilty coz I didn’t protect her from that evil guy. I’m still crying in misery when suddenly, I

felt a hand trying to touch my cheeks. I stood up and look at her. I notice that she’s now staring back

at me while her tears start to roll down her cheeks. I gently shed her tears with my thumb, like I want

to ease the pain she feels and still breaking her inside. I can’t help the way seeing her crying, that’s

why I took the courage of embracing her, cuddling her like I’m protecting her from harm. My arms

are still wrapped around her body when suddenly she speaks.

                                "I love you too, Mark. I love you too, so much ... I'm, I-I'm sorry ..."

                My teary eye starts to open wide after hearing those words - those limited yet profound

words from her. I slowly take off my arms away and glance at her, cupping her cheeks while holding

my gaze on her. Her tears still continues to stream down, but now I can see the glow of happiness

in her eyes, the mesmerising yet enchanting look was brought back to life again – that now I can

clearly see that I did washed away all her fears she feel inside. Still my tears falling from my eyes, I

gently kiss her forehead – a sign that I wholeheartedly respect her and loving her with all my heart.

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                Andie decided on not to return to our school after the day I visited her – after that day I finally

confess how much I love her and adore her. She didn’t manage to finish the remaining days of that

school year until our graduation. To be faithful honest, I’m really sad and gutted on that day, coz we

didn’t get the chance to share this special moment together – that I can’t share this fruitful moment

that we both waited since we became the best of friends...

                ... Ever since the day I fall in love with her.