My mental state is fucking me up.
I can't do what I love anymore.
Fear and depression is looming over me.
How can I rid myself from regret and pain?
I've criticized myself since when I was young.
Self loathing is all I know.
I am not familiar with positivity.
The only thing in my mind is death, death, death.
The only time my mind has positive thoughts is when I'm high.
I think of driving sport cars and getting fucked by male models with lean muscles and pouty lips.
Is there anything better than that?
You think there's more to life than riches and men and drugs?
You think I need to broaden my mind?
You think I can find happiness?
You think I can rid this ill thoughts from my mind?
You think I shouldn't let the past control my present?
You think I should have faith in God?
You think there's hope for me?
You think there might be someone who can love me?
I guess you're just like every other mediocre human in this world.
Fuck you.
