Eh, 4th "Art"-Book.
If you're new, just wanna say that I really don't put much work into my art anymore and that it's just here for others to look at.
This book will probably be full of sketches. You were warned.
Art may cause:
constant eye...
My first sketch on MediBang on Computer. And I love MediBang on Computer *^* Why did dad spent money on SAi for me?! ;-;
Anyways:
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This is the rest of the motivation I had built up. I wrote the whole day like holy shit. Two chapters in one day I'm so proud of myself!
Btw, male anatomy is hard as fuck, how does one do this???
And these eyes aren't even the same size, but I guess it's okay for a 20 minute sketch.
That expression tho XD
Btw, I kinda hate myself for keeping to shove the christmas presents away from myself... have a preview so you know I at least did something already...
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Please don't hate me....
I have really big problems with finishing projects, no matter how much I actually want to... -3-
But you see that I'm trying, right?
Btw, I'm sorry for what I posted yesterday evening. I deleted it already. If you haven't seen it, awesome! but if you have, please don't worry. I'm trying to stop. I'm trying so hard, but I don't really have much motivation. I want to stop, I really want to. Don't worry :) Please, if you worry, it makes me feel so much guiltier, so much more useless and helpless, so much more unworthy. I can't stand those feelings. And if you worry, at least don't tell me, it's not helping. In fact, it makes everything worse. I can't stand the feelings I get when someone tells me they're worried about it and in a way, it also affects how much I cut. I just want to wash those feelings away with my blood. it's like being an alcohol addict. You especially drink when you just wanna forget, not only because it's an addiction. You drink to wash all the memories away. Please try to understand that, don't worry about me anymore. I can't stand attention, especially that type of attention. Don't feel sorry for me anymore. I'm fine :) As long as I can smile, I'll always be fine.
