You're A Psycho ! (Jacob Perez Love Story )

Forgiveness

Jacob's P.O.V 

I fel horrible at what hapd happened last night . I really want to  tell Yn how sorry I was . But I mean nothing can take her forgiveness , If only I knew what she was going through . God , I hate myself for even bullying her in the first place . Why Jacob , why ? 

I made sure to go to school extra early today to see if I could find Yn . No Yn . I started to get a little worried because most of the time she's at the library in the corner , reading a book and listening to her music but today , there was no Yn . I even asked the librarian if she's seen Yn and even she said that she hadn't seen her . I knew that something was up with her . Maybe she woke up late so he'll be coming to school a little later ?I waited a little longer in the library just waiting for her arrival . Nothing . The bell rang for class , I hesitated to get up and go or not just incase if she got here while I left . I went to class (Obviously now late) , To get stopped by the teacher . I explain to her saying that I was at the bathroom then I made my way to my seat . Infront of me was the missing seat whom Yn would always sit in . I knew that she wouldn't be in school today .

I kept on thinking about Yn that I didn't even realize that class was over . I quickly grabbed my bag and went to dance . Normally this would be where I come to get all my feelings and emotions out , today I didn't even bother . Today I just felt guilt .

It was lunch , I didn't feel like eating . What was wrong with me ? Soon lunch had finished . I was just waiting for school to end so I could go and find Yn . I don't know why I'm so worried about her but I understand that I have made her life a living hell , if I could take everything that I did back , I honestly would . 

Soon , school had finished . I rushed outside the double doors & I hoped into my car, the first stop I was making was to Yn's house to see if she was there . I knocked on her door silently . I waited for 2 minutes and no-one opened the door so I knowcked a little harder and waited a little longer, still no-one opened the door . I tried calling her phone but it went straight to voicemail . I tried a few more times and yet still it went to voicemail . I thought of the next place to go to . Jerimiah's house , I didn't see him in school today so obviously she should be there. I didn't even borth waiting . I got into my car and sped off to his house, thank the lord I knew where he lived, it was about a 5 minute drive away from Yn's house . 

"Hello ?"-Jerimiah asked looking at Jacob 

"Is Yn here ?"-Jacob asked hoping he would say yes 

"Yeah . Why ?"-Jerimiah said 

"I really need to talk to her . Please I swear I'll be 2 minutes then I'll leave I just got to talk to her"-Jacob begged 

"Whatever , she's in my room"-Jerimiah said pointing up the stairs 

"Which room ?"-Jacob asked 

"The second on the left"-Jerimiah said closing the door 

"Okay thanks !"-Jacob said almost tripping on the stairs 

"No prob"Jerimiah said walking away 

"Hello ?"-Jacob asked opening the door a little and peeping through 

"Jacob ?"-You jumped a little 

"Yeah. You okay ?"-Jacob asked a little nerous & stepping in

"I'm fine"-You smiled a little 

"Thats good"-Jacob sighed

"So what did you come here for ?"-You asked 

"Well I just wanted to apologize about everything"-Jacob said sitting at the edge of the bed 

"No honestly it's okay"-You sorta smiled again 

"No, your right . I had no right to bully you . I mean you nevre really did anything to me anyway"-Jacob said looking off to the side

"Jacob .. I need to ask you something"-You said 

"What is it ?"-Jacob asked 

"Why did you bully me and not anyone else in the first place ?"-You asked 

"Oh . Well, remember in 2nd grade when we was best friends and we said that we were gonna get married when we were older and have 16 children ?"-Jacob chuckled 

"Yeah , I remember"-You laughed a little 

"Well we would always talk about the stuff we would do when we're older but then that Eric kid goined 2nd grade, he took my space it was like you forgot about my exsistance . That hurt as well . I was heart broken Yn . You'd always sit with him at his table and not mine . You forgot about me, I mean literally . When it was my birthday you forgot .."-Jacob frowned 

"Jacob .. I'm so- 

"No it's okay"-Jacob fake smiled 

"Honestly .."-You said 

"But thats why . I got mad & I couldn't take it anymore so I just ytook all my anger out on you now, when I had the chance to"-Jacob explained then looked down in shame 

"Jacob I understand but you could have just told me instead of getting payback & hurting me physically"-You said 

"I didn't know how to show and express my feelings Yn ."-Jacob said 

"Really now ?"-You asked

"Listen , Let me tell you something"-Jacob said 

"What ?"-You asked 

"Since 2nd grade when you first walked in through the double doors & I saw you crying because you missed your mom, I fell in love with you right there and then ... Still I'm in love with you Yn. That feeling has never gone away . No matter what I do I can't stop thinking about you Yn .... I-I I love you"-Jacob said looking into your eyes 

"Jacob ..."-You said looking into his eyes 

"I'm really sorry Yn . I couldn't think straight today . I was thinking about you all day Yn"-Jacob said 

"Jacob what are you trying to say ?"-You asked 

"I want us to be .... Best friends"-Jacob fake smiled 

"Best friends ?"-You asked

"Yes .. Best friends"-Jacob said 

In reality Jacob was still hurting inside . He wanted to be more than best friends but he didn't have the guts to ask you....