One Thousand Tears

Forgiven

I fought so hard for your heart.
Refusing to give up even when I knew that these cuts would turn to scars.
You put up so many walls
Like you were determined to watch me fall.
Yet, I continued trying to break them all.
It's a pain in my memory that often still stings.
My heart will always hurt now,
But I'm up off the ground and fighting through the pain.
I broke myself just to save you.
But I would do it again if I had to.
I need you to know now,
That I actually do forgive you.
I'll never be able to forget the kind of pain that you caused upon my entire body.
I'll never stop remembering the look in your eyes as you tried to convince me of all of your lies.
But baby, I'm done letting it tear me apart inside.
I'll never stop loving you.
Trust me, I've tried.
I fought too long to bring you back to life.
If you fall down again,
I'm falling with you this time.
I'd rather be dead inside
Than live a life where everyday is a useless fight.
Even tho we're not the same anymore,
We've made each other stronger than we ever were before.
No matter how many times I say that I'm done and I start to walk away,
You always remind me that there's a reason why I've always stayed.
I fought so many unbeatable wars for us.
But somehow I always seem to come out on top for us.
You and I are like the angel who should have gotten kicked out of heaven.
She's beautiful but evil and somehow they still let her in.
You make me second guess every decision that I have ever made.
Forcing me to scream words that I don't mean in fits of rage.
You've caused my heart to admit defeat and give up on every single part of me.
Somehow you've got this hold on me that suffocates my need to leave.
If only I could force your eyes to see what my mind lies awake at night remembering.
I'll stay until the end of me,
'cause we were never meant to turn in to enemies.
I won't survive the type of pain that I'll be forced to face,
if we ever become another tear soaked memory.
I promise to keep forgiving you,
As long as you keep loving me.