im trying my hardest not to cry i tried rapping writing and and reading, but nothing seems to help, i cant tell what the main reason to me being sad is but its not like anyone would care.i dont need anyone to make me happy the only person i need to make me happy is me. im trying to think positive and think well and good thoughts but im stuck with voices in my head. i cant handle having no one talk to or nothing to listen to so im stuck with silence and my negative thoughts. a part of me wants to break down and another part of me wants to laugh hysterically and then all together i want to laugh and cry at the same goddamn time. my parents friends and grandparents dont trust me cause of one stupid mistake. my grandparents say they cant handle me like how the hell am i supposed to take that! just accept the fact my grandma is scared of me.screw it just give up on trying to please everyone and accept that no one loves you. cause no one would ever love a monster. i feel like a screw up and that i just hurt everyone in my path. but thats ok all i need in life is me not my parents not some girl and not my friends i just need me. yeah im fine...physically not mentally
