Falling Again

~11~

I put my fingers to my lips I didn't know what to say or think. "He he just kiss me?" I was standing there I couldn't say anything I was lost at words. "I'm sorry I should not have done that" I saw him look down with a sad face I just wanted to hold him and deep down I wanted to kiss him again. "don't be" and wit that I kissed him deeply, There was something about Matt I just felt like this was right but i knew it was also wrong. I love Jake but Jake wasn't Matt and I loved Matt but Matt wasn't Jake. I couldn't help it I couldn't stop it, in a way I didn't want to stop it. I rapped my arms tighter around him with each kiss. He then Started to kiss my neck and it sent chills down my spine. "ughh Matt" I fell backwards on the couch while he was still kissing me I knew it was wrong but I just couldn't bring myself to tell him to stop. I began to kiss his neck to and I felt his warm hot breath on my neck each touch made my body go numb and made me want him more, but I couldn't it was wrong this was so very wrong. He kissed down my neck and his hands went up my legs. I couldn't take it anymore so I grabed right on him and kissed him as deeply as I could. We both fell backwards on the couch with me on top of him while making out. Little did I know that Jake had walked in on us kissing hot and heavy. "What the fuck is gong on here!" "Jake I can exsplane I ... I" "Save it you cheated on me your a two timeing slut I never want to see you again!" and with that jake left with leving nothing behind but the harsh words and things he said. I could feel the tears falling but there was nothing I could do I did this I did it to myself ..... "Hes never going to forgive me was he?" Only time will tell I just couldn't help myself I .... I love matt but I love Jake to. Whats a girl to do????...............