Ain't It Fun

Chapter 1

It's been a month since Josh and Zac left Paramore and all the drama that came with it, it still has me down, i haven't spoken to Taylor or Jeremy in weeks.... not even Chad. I just dont feel like talking to anyone anymore.

I got up off my couch and made my way throught my house to my bed room, it was a mess, i had clothes all over the floor and all over my mess unmade bed. I sorted through the stuff on my bed and picked up my lyric book and my black accustic guitar that sat in the corner next to my grandfathers old piano he gave me and it took the stuff back out to the lounge room and started writting a song to let all the anger built up in my mind out. A few hours later i had finished a full song and called it Renegade.

"And the grass wasn't green enough here

After watering it with my tears

I'm not sure where you went

Now we are just past tense

And the snakes, they're slithering in

Chasing me to my end

I can't say where that is

I'm running again...."

The next morning i woke up to the sun shining into my eyes from the window that i must of forgotten to close the curtains.  I stood up and walked into the kitchen, rubbing my eyes, i reached up into the cardboard and grabbed a bowl, some ceral and then grabbed some milk from the fridge and combind them together and ate. After that i walked into my room and grabbed some clothes off the floor and put them on and grabbed my car keys off my dresser and picked up my lyric book on my way to the front door. 

I was going to see and talk to Taylor for the first time in weeks to show him the song i wrote.

I got into my car and listened to some radio station and all they talked about was us. Wondering if Paramore has broken up and to be honest i really didn't know.

The rest of the drive into Nashville went pretty quick and soon i was parked out the front of Taylor's house. I got out of my car with my lyric book in hand and made my way to his front door.

I stood there nervous like a teenager visiting her boyfriend for the first time except he wasn't my boyfriend, he was just my best friend, but i guess i was just nervous because i had ignorned everyones phone calls and messages for weeks.

I knocked the the wooden door and waited for Taylor to answer it, a few moments later i head foot steps approching the door and then it opened. Taylor stooded there suprised

"Hayley" he said and walked towards me and embracing me into a hug

"Taylor i missed you" i said hugging back

"why did you ignor all my called and messages?" he asked pulling away and looking into my eyes

"i dont know, i just need time to think about everything that has happened" i said and looked at my feet

"ok well im glad your here and your ok" he said and moved to the side and let me into his house.

We walked into his lounge room and i sat down.

"want anything to drink?" Taylor asked

"um water would be fine" i said and smiled at him and be brought be a bottle of water and sat down next to me

"so what brings you here on this fine day" he said to me

"well last night i decided to write a song and i did and i finished it, i wanted to show you so you could maybe help out with a good tune for it?" i said

"ok let me get my guitar" he said and dashed off up the stairs and grabbed a guitar and came back down.

"ok do you want me to just sing you the lyrics?" i asked

"yeah go for it so i know what sort of tune your looking for" he said 

"ok here we go" i said and started to sing

"Well, the spark never lit up a fire

though i tried and tried and tired

The wind come through you lungs

A hurricane from your tongue

I'll keep your secrets with me

right behind my teeth

Your anger, you anchor

But i'll sail much further on, ah, on

And when i get there

It wont be far enough

I'm a renegade

It's in my blood

If ever i get there

It wont e fast enough

I'm a renegade

I always was. "

"wow Hayley this song is really good but um... is this about Josh?" Taylor asked

"mmmm sort of" i said and look away into the distance with a smirk

"i swear what i have in mind will be the last things i ever write about him... i just... i just need it to clear my mind so i can start fresh" i said.