We're Both Monsters....*Related To Pull The Trigger In My Heart!*

My Death. *Warning Very Sad!*

This is pretty bad then the day i went on that run with my own husband (Carl.....) and got Daryl killed by a horde of zombies and nearly didn't make it back out-----all the way to Alexandria-----i probably won't make it through the second labor (because i am pretty afraid of either losing the new pup, or that i may end up dying before i give birth to the new pup!!!!!!) so i am gonna have to.....get.....cut up wide open as in; 'c-section' just like you-know-who!!!!! *but this is going to break Carl and our kids' hearts really terribly bad....i'm sorry!!!!!!!* & well the other bad thing is: yesterday night during the run after the horde had torn apart Daryl and eating him-----i kinda got-----SCRATCHED by one of the gosh damn zombies, and i just couldn't even begin to describe how bad and painful it was!!!!! later on i have decided to show Carl what has just happened to me and as i did: "Steph why on earth didn't you tell or show me before?!?!" he asked while tearing up and sniffling "Clarity & Milly has to know about this.....other then that.....i am so sorry!!!!!" i said to Carl *10 minutes later!* "mom has been WHAT?!?!?" Claire screeched loudly at the top of her lungs "she has been scratched by a zombie-----and she said to tell you and your little sister about this-----and that she's really sorry!!!!!!!!!" Carl told Clarity and then she had started crying like crazy soon enough she passed it on to Milorie "is that.....actually true?!?!" she asked "i'm afraid that it is true...." Clarity said and Milorie was crying even worse then her big sister did soon i told Carl that i had to get the 'c-section' by getting cut wide open, and to do it right now cause it's an emergency *and probably the new pup may die from inside of me if it doesn't happen right this instant!!!!!!!* "this is the only way for our new pup to survive this horrible fate....i know that i might be dead right after this....but i also want you and our daughters and new pup to know that i love you all and i am sorry this happened for no apparent reason!!!!!!!" i told Carl after we hugged each other very tightly "we love you too mother!" Milorie said back as me, she Carl and Claire hugged each other like very tightly "this is going to hurt me and our daughters and new pup way more then it's going to hurt you....and i am so sorry!!!!!!!" Carl told me and we kissed "ewwwwww!!!!!!!" Clarity said as she covered her eyes while gagging with her tongue out and shuddered with disgust soon Milly & her big sister heard me shriek very loudly at the top of my lungs, spitting up some blood. & slowly began losing my life while taking my last breaths as well. as they both started crying even more and watching their father Carl cutting up my stomach wide open with a very sharp knife, and trying to find the pup inside of me before it suffocated *5 minutes later.....and now i am not alive.....anymore because i didn't make it while he cut me open and it hurt so much!!!!!!!!!* soon enough Carl had just pulled out a squirming and loudly-whimpering newborn pup from my now dead body and checked it's gender after cleaning him up from all the gross & sticky things: (including blood and the white stuff matted in his fur!!!!!!!!) "i think that it's a boy......" he said and while he showed Milorie & Clarity after grooming and fixing up his fur and hair "Eeeeeek his adorable!!!!!!!!" Claire squealed happily "he sure is!!!!!!!!!" Milly told her sister "so dad------what's going to be his name?!?!" Clarity asked Carl "Alex.....that is exactly what!!!!!!!" he told her "father.....i think you should take off and hold onto mother's favorite golden ring.....for now on just in case because she doesn't need it anymore, so that we can have something to remember her by!!!!!!!!!!" Milorie told Carl and held Alex for him as he took off the ruby ring from my finger then all three of them lost control as they where starting to cry & howled very long & pretty loudly at the dark sky and brightly shining moon for taking me away from them too soon. but the most upset one there was the newborn pup besides his older sisters. and their father: