nothing left to lose, either way I have already lost my dignity
long ago when I gave myself up for judas himself.
no sweetness will ever come close to how delectable loss of self-respect
tasted on my cherry tongue.
so easy, so liberating, so destructive
I will never be the same again
I lost that self eons ago, I deserted her in the dark matter of the universe
no amount of searching will ever be enough to find what I wish for so dearly
but regardless I don't think my past self would ever look at me
without traces of disdain staining her physique.
