lips glued shut and eyes pinned wide open - forced to stare back at the eyes stained with judgement that scorches my skin
words just won't leave from the locked doors of my damned mouth, no use for meek attempts at defending myself
when all my free-will has been stripped from me as one would strip away a band aid. the sharp initial pain gone in a second,
but the dull ache - the memory - of what was once there still lingers.
each day I prohibit myself further
each day I tie myself up and allow life to continue on without me acting as a burden.
I wait in agony as I try to find the courage to speak my mind without the fearsome consequences playing out in my head on a loop - brainwashing myself relentlessly.
I don't have anything to do
I don't have anything to say
so I'll sew my lips shut for good and live with my fate of being a body without a voice.
