(tw: slight bloody imagery)
I never thought it would be like this,
everyday a fight for survival
and each night a struggle to keep
life's monsters at bay as the desire for the kiss of Death
to fall upon my parted lips
is felt even in my brittle bones.
please forgive me for my absence in your life
please forgive me for repeating the same mistakes
please forgive me,
I have lost myself to my bad habits,
my sinister vices have coiled
themselves around my body like
a boa constrictor to its prey.
my temptations are all that I can see
I can no longer see who I am
(see who I was trying to be.)
and with each vice that refuses to die,
I beat myself to a bloody pulp
tie a noose around my neck,
wait, and wait, and wait
for the courage to let go
and be free.
