I'm at the party
I see him
But he doesn't see me
As always I'm invisible
Like I don't exist
A girl pushes past me
My drink spilling onto my foot
She doesn't even turn to say sorry
She's just like the others
The ones who shake me
Create this monster that I'm turning into
A guy steps onto my foot
Doesn't even notice
I'm starting to wonder if I am some kind of ghost
They hurt me and don't know
If they do they don't care
Because I'm a nobody to some
A monster to others
I'm starting to wonder if I even exist at this point
It doesn't seem like I do
Maybe he will see me
Somehow someday
I guess it's worth a shot
See if he knows I exist
I see him
He's alone
Maybe I should tell him
If he doesn't care
My heart will shatter
He's the one that keeps me going
I have nothing left
He sees me
He's walking towards me
Maybe he knows me
He waves at me
I wave back
He sees me
I have to tell him
Hey there I say
I love you
I had to tell you
He's looking at me weird
Now he's not
He's looking at something behind me
He just brushes past me
I turn around and see
He goes up to a girl
She's way prettier than me
He kisses her
She's in just as much shock as me
I told him those three words tonight
I guess I thought that if I told him he'd love me
I wouldn't be invisible
At least one person sees me
But he gave me a weird look
I guess he doesn't love me
Now I'm screaming in a room full of people
But nobody can hear me
The words have left my lips
But I feel like it's in my head
If they really left it would turn quiet
If they were as loud as I thought
It's all in my head
My brain is tricking me
I'm going home
There is nothing left for me
I feel if one more thing happens
I'll explode
I've been shook up too much
I don't think I can take much more
And never again will I say those three words I said tonight in my life
They cause trouble and hurt
I cannot bear much more
R.K.
