Shawn Mendes Imagines

25. change

A/N: heyo! DOUBLE UPDATE AYE !!!
But as usual, I hope your week was lovely 🌹
Ive been feeling kinda down this week so I wrote this because it's basically what I'm going through right now !! I shouldn't be feeling this way but I do and it sucks ass. Ugh. Anyways, hope you guys enjoy ! Don't mind any mistakes as it is unedited but other than that, love y'all xo 💖

QOTP: eye colour?
A: dark brown (my eyes are not pretty to look at tbh)

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I smiled as I typed a message, tapping 'send' as I watched the blue bubble pop onto my screen.
My smile grows wider as Shawn replies again, his messages clearly keeping me content as I tried my hardest to finish my school work.

Shawn: I wouldn't mind meeting you someday 😏

You: haha you can count on it as long as we remain friends 😜

Shawn: YAY 😂

Everything was perfect. I had met Shawn through an online platform and we became friends instantly. I was starting to fall for him, but what made it hard was that we both lived in different countries.
He'd send me 'good morning' and 'goodnight' messages which never failed to make my day, but I could tell that he was stressed a lot.

Shawn: I have to go, I'll talk to you in a bit.

You: okay! I'll talk to you later 😅

That's when everything changed. The next two days I waited for Shawn to message me, but he never did. I started getting worried, so I sent him a quick message.

You: hey, you okay?

"Y/N!" I hear my mom call, "dinner is ready!"
"Coming!" I reply, throwing my bed onto my bed as a make my way down the stairs and plop myself at the dinner table.

I observe the plate in front of me and pick up my fork, poking at the green broccoli as Shawn lingered in my mind.
"I'm not that hungry," I sigh, lifting my eyes to see my mom look at me sympathetically.

"What's wrong, sweetheart?" She asks, taking a sip from her cranberry juice as I continued to poke my dinner.
I shrug, "I'm just really tired.. there's a lot on my mind."

My mom stops momentarily, placing her fork down onto the plate. "Oh honey.." she starts, "you know you can talk to me about anything."

I nod, "I know, Mom, but right now I just kind of want to lie in bed for a bit."
She nods understandingly, "of course, I'll just put your dinner in the fridge if you decide to eat it."

I thank her and trudge up the stairs to my room where I fall back onto my soft bed. I roll over and pick up my phone, the screen blaring through the darkness.

Shawn: sorry, my phone died but yeah I'm fine... really.

I breathe in, my thoughts becoming blurry as I began to question Shawn's weird behaviour.

You: okay.. how was your day?

Shawn: I gotta go. I'll talk to you later.

I looked at the screen in disbelief. Shawn was acting so strange, and it was so mind boggling because I really liked him.

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Another couple of days had passed, and still no word from him. My chest had significantly tightened due to the anxiety I was beginning to experience. I messaged him several times, yet I got nothing.

I felt hurt, lonely, and disappointed. Not because he left, but because he made me feel special. It was betraying to think that he led me on and left, but I had no right to accuse him of anything since I didn't know him personally.

I sighed and lay my head down onto my pillow, a single tear drop slipping from my eye as my heart raced in hopes that I would see his name pop up on my screen.

Maybe I was expecting too much, but it was an understatement to say that Shawn just made me felt special.

He made me happy.

I looked at my phone one last time before shaking my head and shutting it off.
I nudged my head into my pillow and closed my eyes in attempts to fall asleep.
I wasn't going to lie, it was hard. There was too much going through my mind; the thoughts of Shawn permanently etched into my memory like an overcomplicated concept.

A concept that made me formulate questions.

Questions that made me wonder..

Wonder how things could change so fast

And why they had to change.

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A/N: THIS WAS SO EMOTIONAL AH IM SORRY BUT IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH SOME REALLY CRAPPY SHIT THAT KINDA INSPIRED THIS AND I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST BUT YEAH. I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKED IT 💓

Probably one of the longest ones I've written so far in this book hehe.

Thanks for reading as always and stay rad ❤

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With great love,

- Allie 💕