i really want to love myself, hyung, but i can't
how would you react if i told you the truth?
would you hate me for it?
i really don't know what to expect.
you come every night to my room, sending taehyung away.
you lie on his bed and we talk.
it's so beautiful,
when it's two at night and you're telling me stories from your childhood,
and i'm listening.
you're so, so beautiful.
am i fool for expecting anything?
am i a fool for not trying to fall out of love?
i know I could've dated a girl or two,
and made love with them,
and i could've gotten drunk every night, so i forget about you,
but i didn't.
you did nothing wrong.
i had no reason to ignore you and hurt you.
so, i stuck to you,
unknowingly,
falling deeper in love.
i look over at you, as your soft snores fill the room.
you look so soft, i want to hold you close, i want you to wrap your arms around me, i want you to kiss me back if i kiss you. but i'm asking for too much. you love me, but not the way i love you.
so I just watch you sleep,
i note how you sleep soundlessly,
occasionally turning,
sometimes mumbling.
then i turn away, wrapping myself up in a cocoon with my blanket,
i'm just a fool in love with you, hoping that you'll love me back.
but it's too much to ask because how can a heart like yours ever love a heart like mine?
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