Beca didn't have many friends, any friends
She had Allie though, her online friend since elementary school
She always listened to her, really listened to her
She didn't sugar coat anything, she always knew when Beca wasn't okay
Allie always asked when Beca wasn't okay
She only cared about Beca and refused to answer any questions unrelated to Beca
Beca was glad that she cared, but was weirded out about how she never wanted to talk about herself
When Allie finally opened herself up to her, Beca felt like a million bucks
She felt like she could help Allie get better
Allie was a happy sunflower seed planted in the wrong soil
It didn't belong, she probably would've been liked if she tried, but she was better alone
She wanted to be some kind of different, any different from the other people
So she started to with herself
Her world: 1
Allie's ignorance made Beca feel special
Allie rather talk to her than anyone else
And that was good
And for a while, it was all fine
But it was never fine
It was so not fine that Allie attempted a suicide by downing a bottle of sleeping pills
Nobody thinks that things like this could happen
But they're everywhere
Allie is locked up somewhere where she would be forced to stay alive
And I'm still here
Living the same old life
But soon I wont be living anymore
I'll be just existing
Gradually, my fears will eat me alive
And Allie, if you're reading this,
It was never your fault
It was mine
I will ceise to exist
