To Rely // a Rogue One fanfiction

together

"I want to become useful again. I can't just sit around the base while everybody else is out there fighting." Jyn sat across a large circular table from one of the most influential women in the Rebellion.

Mon Mothma looked away in thought, sighing. "Jyn, I can't throw you into missions blindly. Literally."

"I can navigate fine," she argued.

"Around the base, yes, but not in an imperial warzone."

"That's why I'm going to train harder. And, I'll have a team with me."

"If it kills you, the daughter of Galen Erso's blood is on my hands."

"Give me a chance," Jyn huffed, gripping her staff. The teal lights of rebel technology cascaded against her skin in the dim light of one of the coordination rooms. "Let me train with some trainees. When I've got my bearings, I can go back on missions."

"With what squad? Who are you going to trust enough if something goes wrong? Or if you're separated? Jyn Erso, who are you willing being that close to? Enough to not drag the mission down?"

"Cassian," Jyn said without hesitation.

"Excuse me?" Mon Mothma was taken aback.

"Captain Andor. Replace my nurse with somebody I actually trust. Let us share my dorm - he can have Amir's bed. I trust him." She shifted nervously, unable to tell Mon Mothma's reaction.

"Miss Erso, I can't distract Captain Andor from his missions."

"His missions only last maybe weeks at a time. I can hold my own while he's away and work with him when he's back. And he's not away now. Everything we do is only in benefit of the Rebellion."
Jyn's voice was steady and strong.

Mon Mothma was quiet, rolling the idea around in her mind.

"If one thing backfires, Erso, I'm pulling the plug," she paused, "Next training session is tomorrow morning. I'll see Amir's things moved out of your room and back to the medical bay, and the Captain will be instructed to house with you. Is that clear?"

Jyn stood up in her chair, probably too quickly, her excitement showing, her staff hitting the edge of the table. "Crystal. Thank you, ma'am. We won't let you down."

Mon Mothma saw her off, and Jyn bumped into way too many chairs before actually leaving the room and making her way to find Cassian as quickly as she could. She was far too giddy, feeling childish - except this time, she was excited about it.

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Jyn hurriedly found her way back to her room, hoping Cassian would already be there. She entered to hearing shuffling in the opposite side of the room.

"Cassian?" She asked perkily.

"No," a familiar voice returned, "It's Amir."

"Ah, Amir, I see you've already received the new housing arrangements." Jyn couldn't help but feel bad. She felt like she was taking her job away from her. "I'm sorry it's so sudden. I'm just really excited to get back with my team."

"Don't worry about it, Jyn. I knew this was coming, and there are plenty more patients who need my help. I'm just glad to see you've come so far."

Jyn couldn't help but smile. She walked over to where Amir's voice was located, leaned her staff against a wall and tried her best to hug her. She was hugging her from the side, but a hug's a hug. Amir smiled and patted Jyn's back. "Thank you, Amir. I couldn't have done it without you."

The two separated, and as Amir gathered the last of her things, Jyn asked if she needed any help carrying anything, which Amir responded that she was fine. They said their goodbyes and Amir walked out and back towards her original quarters in the med bay.

Jyn retrieved her staff and moved to her bed, leaning the staff against the side. She sat criss - crossed, awaiting Cassian's arrival.

She grew increasingly nervous, hoping Cassian truly meant it when he said he'd love to live with her or was just saying that because she was blind. Her mind soon became overwhelmed with doubts. Did Cassian want the same from her as she wanted from him?

No wonder Jyn never got attached to anybody. This was so troubling.

Before Jyn could react to his footsteps, Cassian typed in the key code to the sliding door and walked in (also a little excited to be sharing a room with Jyn Erso, to say the least), interrupting her negative slew of thoughts.

"Cassian," she chirped, "You heard about the arrangements already?"

Cassian walked over and dumped his belongings on his bed, sighing in relief of having to carry that much such a long way. "Of course I did," he said, smiling at the faint blush creeping up on Jyn's cheeks, "I'm excited, Jyn. I can't wait to be a team again."

Jyn smiled widely, feeling so complete and happy knowing that Cassian and she would be closer than ever.

It was creeping up her throat. She had to get it out.

"I-" both of them said it at the same time, and both chuckled. "You first," Cassian said.

"I have to tell you something," Jyn confessed, playing with the folds in her sheets. She was genuinely anxious to tell him this, her heart in her throat.

"Okay," Cassian said softly, coming over to sit with her on her bed.

She took a deep breath. "Since Scarif, or even a bit before that, I began to not be able to stand the thought of being without you. I feel awful for scaring you like that while I was comatose, because I know if that was you, I would never leave your side in the med bay. I've never really felt like this before, and I'm not one to get attached to people, but when you're with me, I feel like I'm home. It's easier for me to feel the world around me because you make everything so much clearer. I don't know if this is making sense," she looked down, avoiding Cassian's presence.

"It is." Cassian's voice was soft in her ear. He was so close to her. "I feel that way too. The rebellion is not home without you." Jyn turned her face so their breaths mingled together, their noses almost touching.

"I don't ever want to be without you." His voice was so alluring.

Jyn's hand traveled up to cup the side of his face, letting her thumb slip over his bottom lip. Cassian put his hand over hers, keeping it there. She leaned in, thankful her placement was right as their noses slid past one another's, and Jyn was kissing Cassian.